The love that I speak of is desired by all but very few are bestowed the honour to carry it forth. It's not easy. It's path is strewn with broken shards of glass and thorns. You have to have the courage and conviction to carry the ambers of a smoldering fire in your heart, move on yet hope that one day you can quench your thirst with your first love coming back in your life.
The love that I point at is not located geologically on any map. It is mapped in hearts that are innocent. Hearts that mean no harm to anybody. Hearts that sacrifice all for their beloved. Hearts that smolder in the cauldron of fire that separates them. Hearts torn apart by desires yet remaining unquenched coz they were unable to meet. There comes a meeting point ultimately some day and all feelings pour out. Sometimes, you never meet and just while away your life in another loveless relationship, a namesake relation for the world to see. Sometimes you just break free from that bondage waiting for your lost one to seek you out. If you are lucky and prayed hard enough, your lost one comes home.... else you wither away into the oblivion all alone and melancholy in the hope that some day he would realize and turn the world upside down to discover you waiting for him.... to unearth the pure feelings silently waiting for you to uncover them.
The essence of that first love remains forever, a perfume that never fails to remind you of the sweet fragrance of yesteryears and the togetherness of those times. It's like the musk of the musk deer that remains with it throughout its lifetime. The sweetness wafting through every pore of your being when you remember those days... nothing can match that priceless moment.
You love only once in your lifetime, so love truly. Don't dilly dally and waste your time away in short dalliances. People come and go, that one remains in heart and soul for eternity. Let not your love fail, let it be remembered by generations to come.... pure eternal love that crossed all barriers, yet remained steadfast in it's belief that one day he would return.
When I lost you, I cried, I became numb, I was angry, I didn't know what to do....yet each day even in someone else' arms, I prayed and hoped to meet you. My morning began with a sweet greeting to you then and still does... and my night ended with your thoughts, wondering where you were and wishing you happiness always. Along life's journey, I saw glimpses of you and heard about you. I was saddened at the way events turned out for you, I wanted to reach out and console you, yet couldn't. I was tied down by my worldly responsibilities and a loveless marriage, I wanted to break free but there was nowhere to go. One day, I fell into a deep abyss and was unable to surface for a long time. I was given up for dead, for sure, I had died a thousand deaths by then. I resurrected my life, rose as the Phoenix from my ashes and made a life for myself and my flock.
The sheep is waiting for the Shepherd.... come home to the lambs. Come home, O' lost one. Come home, O' wanderer. Use your compass to tread home steadily O' sailor. Set sail to the land where we await you. Your mermaid climbs the rock on the shore and looks out for you everyday dawn and dusk. Come hitherto to your damsel, come home O' Prince.
You love only once in your lifetime, keep your faith... I kept mine and am not disappointed. There is a long wait but the fruit at the end is sweet. The journey is long but you CAN reach your destination.. Ask me.... I can vouch for that.
I have loved once and for a lifetime..... I have loved you.
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