If I could...

If I could, I would steal a few moments of happiness.
If I could, I would fly like a free bird in the sky.
If I could, I would live life like never before.... like there was no tomorrow.
Only, if I could, I would.

Am a coward, because every time  I became bold...
I fell flat on my face.
Am afraid to try, because every time I tried ....
I failed.
Am scared, because every time I took the step forward....
I went back to square one... ground zero.

Yet, I brush the dirt from my dress and try again and again....
And, as always again and again I fail....
Yet, I try.... try harder still...
To bring a moment of happiness in my life...
Yet, the damn fool.... skirts me and goes into anothers' lap.

If I could, I would stop happiness from going elsewhere...
But, that's selfish and just not me.
I am made to sacrifice always.... I guess...
To remain single and walk away into the horizon all alone.

If I could, I would gather all my memories and go away ... far away.
But, my duties beckon me.... innocent smiles hold me tight.
And, I get carried away by my obligations and sigh in vain.
There's no two ways about it, I have to live for my flock....
Tend them, nurture them.... make a life for them.

If I could, I would certainly go all out and make all those mistakes....
All over again and yet remain smiling .... grinning from ear to ear.
if I could, i would surely look at life in a more positive manner.
If I could, i would be the last woman standing....
Battling every storm and calamity.... yet remaining calm within.

If I could, I would..... but am but a mere human....
With feelings and sensitivity....
I too have my demons to battle...
I too have my drawbacks to reason with....
I am but a mere human .... with humane feelings.

If I could, I would turn the tide...
If I could , I would turn back time...
If I could, I would... surely I would make this world a happier place to live in.

Only if I could, I would....