I am but a shadow of my previous self. I have delved so much in self pity that I no longer know who I am. I am dying a thousand deaths each moment for no fault of mine. My self esteem has taken a lashing so bad, that the wounds are open and can be seen by one and all. I have lost the smile that once dominated my facial features. I have become a zombie with no life at all. The hurt, the wound goes deep down and doesn't let me rest. Each moment is a heavy burden to live in shame and I am unable to surface from the gallows of melancholy aches.
I can't show my face to anyone anymore. My loved ones are hurting, seeing me hurt. I am thrashing and turning in a pool of tears that dry up in the eyes itself, lest someone sees them. Damn, what have I let myself into?
Thoughts of his smug smile at my sorry state tear me apart. Thoughts of his evil grin kill me each moment. What revenge did he have in his mind and for what, that he did this to me? Why did he use me ? Why did he hurt me again? What have I done to deserve this? I was living my life, why did he come and destroy it once again?
I am afraid of my own shadow. I am afraid of every movement around me. I am startled by every sound that I hear. I am but a shadow of my previous self. He has left me shame faced and hurting. He has left me gasping for air. I don't know what to do, I am lost and spinning from here to there. Whatever little sleep I had, has forsaken me... I walk the night like a ghost in spite. I see no end to this sight.... I am hurting and find no light.
Every moment is a pain to live. Every moment brings memories in floods. Every moment is laden with guilt. Every moment is filled with silt. I want to run away, hiding my face in shame. I want to just go away, never to return. I am just a shadow of what I once was... the smile wiped off my face.
I can't show my face to anyone anymore. My loved ones are hurting, seeing me hurt. I am thrashing and turning in a pool of tears that dry up in the eyes itself, lest someone sees them. Damn, what have I let myself into?
Thoughts of his smug smile at my sorry state tear me apart. Thoughts of his evil grin kill me each moment. What revenge did he have in his mind and for what, that he did this to me? Why did he use me ? Why did he hurt me again? What have I done to deserve this? I was living my life, why did he come and destroy it once again?
I am afraid of my own shadow. I am afraid of every movement around me. I am startled by every sound that I hear. I am but a shadow of my previous self. He has left me shame faced and hurting. He has left me gasping for air. I don't know what to do, I am lost and spinning from here to there. Whatever little sleep I had, has forsaken me... I walk the night like a ghost in spite. I see no end to this sight.... I am hurting and find no light.
Every moment is a pain to live. Every moment brings memories in floods. Every moment is laden with guilt. Every moment is filled with silt. I want to run away, hiding my face in shame. I want to just go away, never to return. I am just a shadow of what I once was... the smile wiped off my face.
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