Monologue of Agni ...
24th December 2011:
Today my life began. My parents do not know it yet, but it is I already. And I am to be a boy. I shall have brown hair and dark brown eyes. Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I shall love nature.
31st December 2011:
Some say that I am not a real person yet, that only my mother exists. But I am a real person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I am.
15th January 2012:
My mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and later talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA. Mama can feel me. She is glowing.
25th January 2012:
My heart began to beat today all by itself. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire. It will stop, and then I shall die.
29th January 2012:
I am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I have to wait a long time yet before those little legs will raise me to my mother’s arms, before these little arms will be able to gather flowers and embrace my father. Today is Mom's Birth Anniversary,,,, She is very happy... Dad was there to wish her and also bought her a chocolate cake and a crown... The Queen of his heart... I guess, he loves her a lot.
2nd February 2012:
Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I’ll be able to stroke my mother’s hair with them.
5th February 2012:
Mom is very happy that she has me within her .....How happy she must be! Are you happy, mom?
My mom and dad are probably thinking about a name for me. Mom wants to name me AGNI... The fire within her..... But, Dad doesn't seem too happy. I am getting so big already.
10th February 2012:
My hair is growing. It is smooth and bright and shiny. I wonder what kind of hair mom has? Dad tells her she shouldn't keep me. He says not now, later.
12th February 2012:
I am just about able to see. It is dark around me. When mom brings me into the world it will be full of sunshine and flowers. But what I want more than anything is to see my mom. How do you look, mom? Why doesn't Dad want me? He wants to take Mom to a doctor to take me out of her. Mom is crying.
14th February 2012:
I wonder if mom hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the world a little sick. But my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evenly: tup-tup, tup-tup. You’ll have a healthy little son, mom! Today is Valentines Day. Dad didn't meet Mom. He wants to get me terminated. they argued.
18th February 2012:
Today my Dad forcibly took my Mom to the Doctor and the doctor killed me. Mom cried a lot. But, no one heard her. Why did Dad kill me?
2nd June 2012:
I came back .... but this time, I didn't want to trouble Mom.... Dad had abandoned her with me within her .... She wanted to keep me forever.... But, she is too weak and frail and emotionally distraught ... she fainted and fell downstairs.... her laptop also broke .... I just decided to leave .... I can't see her sad anymore and all alone. I know she is in pain .... but she is alone and Dad doesn't care. I can't see my Mom unhappy .... she is a fighter .... Hope she gets me justice One Day.
24th December 2011:Today my life began. My parents do not know it yet, but it is I already. And I am to be a boy. I shall have brown hair and dark brown eyes. Just about everything is settled though, even the fact that I shall love nature.
31st December 2011:
Some say that I am not a real person yet, that only my mother exists. But I am a real person, just as a small crumb of bread is yet truly bread. My mother is. And I am.
15th January 2012:
My mouth is just beginning to open now. Just think, in a year or so I shall be laughing and later talking. I know what my first word will be: MAMA. Mama can feel me. She is glowing.
25th January 2012:
My heart began to beat today all by itself. From now on it shall gently beat for the rest of my life without ever stopping to rest! And after many years it will tire. It will stop, and then I shall die.
29th January 2012:
I am growing a bit every day. My arms and legs are beginning to take shape. But I have to wait a long time yet before those little legs will raise me to my mother’s arms, before these little arms will be able to gather flowers and embrace my father. Today is Mom's Birth Anniversary,,,, She is very happy... Dad was there to wish her and also bought her a chocolate cake and a crown... The Queen of his heart... I guess, he loves her a lot.
2nd February 2012:
Tiny fingers are beginning to form on my hands. Funny how small they are! I’ll be able to stroke my mother’s hair with them.
5th February 2012:
Mom is very happy that she has me within her .....How happy she must be! Are you happy, mom?
8th February 2012:
10th February 2012:
My hair is growing. It is smooth and bright and shiny. I wonder what kind of hair mom has? Dad tells her she shouldn't keep me. He says not now, later.
12th February 2012:
I am just about able to see. It is dark around me. When mom brings me into the world it will be full of sunshine and flowers. But what I want more than anything is to see my mom. How do you look, mom? Why doesn't Dad want me? He wants to take Mom to a doctor to take me out of her. Mom is crying.
14th February 2012:
I wonder if mom hears the whispering of my heart? Some children come into the world a little sick. But my heart is strong and healthy. It beats so evenly: tup-tup, tup-tup. You’ll have a healthy little son, mom! Today is Valentines Day. Dad didn't meet Mom. He wants to get me terminated. they argued.
18th February 2012:
Today my Dad forcibly took my Mom to the Doctor and the doctor killed me. Mom cried a lot. But, no one heard her. Why did Dad kill me?
2nd June 2012:
I came back .... but this time, I didn't want to trouble Mom.... Dad had abandoned her with me within her .... She wanted to keep me forever.... But, she is too weak and frail and emotionally distraught ... she fainted and fell downstairs.... her laptop also broke .... I just decided to leave .... I can't see her sad anymore and all alone. I know she is in pain .... but she is alone and Dad doesn't care. I can't see my Mom unhappy .... she is a fighter .... Hope she gets me justice One Day.
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