A Requiem to a Relationship lost

The Largest Moon of the Year...
Romantic Moon nearest to Earth ...
A Blossoming Budding love ...
Two Lovers ... A promise made ...
To culminate their Love that Night ...
All dreams shattered ...
He walked away ...
She turned around and walked away too.
Once or twice she looked back ...
He wasn't there ...
lost in a World ...
Falsified by false beliefs ...
She sought Truth ...
She decided to walk the path alone again ...
This time too much at stake ...
All Lost ...
Faith, Trust and Name ...
All in the name of a Game ...
A game of Thorns ...
A make believe World ...
He believed in.
Nothing left to salvage ...
Savage Beast within ...
Rearing its Ugly head ...
She quietens it ...
Hush! No, he was once my own ...
Whimpering the anger subsides ...
She walks Once again ...
In the incessant rain ...
ALL ALONE.

Homely ...

Once I had a home ...
 A beautiful home ...
A laughter filled warm home ...
A place where all were welcome ...
 A paradise that opened it's door for all ....
Then, a storm came ...
 A thunderous Typhoon ....
It took all the smiles away ...
It took all the warmth away...
What remained were ruins ....
Skeletons clanking together ....
Hollow far away looks and ....
And, a Mother and her two ...
Thence, she walked every mile alone ..
Two little ones in tow ...
 A vow on her lips ...
To never set up a home again.

She wanders along the paths of wisdom...
Truth and hardwork...
 Toils her days away ...
She walks the path alone unflinching ...
Steely resolve never to be weak again.

No more Homely ...
No more homebound ...
She walks the nights a Ghostly sight....
People wonder who she is ...
She just smiles and walks away.

A lost cause ...
A home broken ...
Three lives lost ...
To the ever vagrant desires of  a man...
Lost humanity ...
Loss of mankind.

Home Sweet Home ...
Rubbles too not to be seen ...
Just ruined hearts ...
Insane sanity ...
A steely resolve ...
To never set up a Home again.

Today ...

She wrote to me ... "I am Sorry."

A  message that set me thinking. Why turn around and return to say what happened wasn't her doing? Why apologise now, when all is lost? Just because now you have lost what you felt was yours that you realize your mistake? Why did you antagonise me when I was kind to you? Why did you stab me in the back when I stood by you?

Life comes one full circle; what goes around comes around.

Your past actions have caught up with you and now you are in pain and then you realize? You can't fathom my heartache; the loss of my unborn. You may laugh it off for you know not the value of life. You know not the laughter of a child. My loss left me bereft of any feelings. My loss created a void so deep; I haven't surfaced from it yet. Do not give me more pain. Can you return my unborn to me?

Every waking moment I spend loathing myself for letting him kill my unborn. Every living moment spent in pain. Morose I walk with a pale face; what do you know of my pain?

Being a Woman you insulted the very word 'Woman' with your actions. What more can I say?

Once again ... The thoughts ...

Once again ...
He resurfaced in her thoughts ...
Agni ... Out of the blue ...Suddenly ... he was all over in her dreams ...Reminding her of what was ...
An affair to remember ...A tryst with destiny.

An affair that changed everything ...A real relationship of individuals ...One oblivious of the devious intentions ...Of the other ... The other uncertain perhaps ...A relationship presumably ...A strong one ...But obviously on shaky grounds...None could fathom the pain ...The pain that would follow ...The revelation that separated them ...The lightening that split the tree of confidence...That murdered the life within...That took Agni away from his abode ...Threw him from the warmth of the womb ...Into the throes of pain and uncertainty.

Agni was lost forever ...Not once but twice ..,He made a comeback yet ... Never able to regain the lost ground and had to turn away. A mother lost her child twice ; thanks to a troubled soul who had no spine... A woman lost her trust and resolved never to fall in love again.

Scarred for life ... never believing any one ... can you blame her for the state of her mind? No!  it wasn't fair and it's easy to say get on with your life .... Can you if you have lost your child not to a stranger but coz' of his own sire?

Thoughts that crop up now and then ... Out of the blue ... The pain resurfacing and giving life a huge setback. Agni .... his memories can never be erased and shall always affect my decisions in life. Agni can never be replaced nor the pain relieved that came with his removal .... A scar that remains and shall forever remind me of my loss and guilt for not having stood for what was right.

Once again, I am pained ... Once again I decide to take flight and move away from everything humane ... Once again a Mother searches in vain for her lost child ... Once again the Wolves cry and Hyenas laugh ... She wants to walk alone leaving behind everything that binds her ... Once again a woman is torn apart; her memories won't let her live again.

The one beside her today is pained at her pain ... But she has to journey alone ... He will be left behind ... for this is her fight alone... a lonely woman's battle against all odds ... A though that has crossed her mind and is concrete not mild.

He searches God .... She searches herself... lost somewhere ... she moves on in the opposite direction... Man, Woman, Child ... A picture in her mind ... Once again, She searches for the lost one.

A walk to remember ...

Long strides ...
Pretty face and tall man ...
The frothy sea beside ...
A promenade famous ...
No promises made ..
Except of friendship strong ....
Two strangers became one ...
Friends forever...
Just a plain simple walk ...
So much exchanged ...
Life took a different turn ...
Humans after all.

Two tall figures ...
People watching enviously ...
Oblivious of those glances ...
Two individuals walked on.

Since time immemorial ...
I have taken these walks ...
Along the same promenade ...
Just the person walking beside ...
Changed each time ...
But friendship ... Friends remained ...
Partners changed ...
Thoughts remained ...
Memories of yesteryear linger on ...
Faces changed.

The frothy sea remained ...
The tempestuous Ocean stayed put ...
The sand beneath my feet shifted ...
But the grains remained....
The rocks stood their ground ...
Unwavering and solid ...
The lovers changed ...
But their actions remained.

The same Chaiwallah ...
The same Peanut seller...
The same Buildings behinds ...
The same Coffee shop by the seaside....
The same Moon and stars ...
The same night sky ...
The same ME ...
But the person beside me changed.

A walk to remember...
Each time ...
A beautiful relationship ...
Friends for life they remain ...
Albeit in the shadows of the night.

A walk to remember ... Indeed.

Makeshift Belief ...

Like makeshift huts...
Makeshift beliefs are on shaky grounds ...
Ground reality jutting out ...
From the bamboo that holds ...
The beliefs together.

One storm ...
The Makeshift belief flounders ...
And is reduced to a non belief...
Leaving behind  naked man ...
Naked in the knowledge ....
Of his own False truth.

One Earthquake ...
The trembling shaking Earth ...
The ground beneath shifts ...
The make-believe thoughts ,,,
Of a weak man...
Lose their faith in him.

One Tornado ...
All spins around ...
The straws moving in circles ...
Spinning homes ..
Spinning heads ..
Turning your make-believe faith around.

Move on from your makeshift belief ...
Change your makeshift abode...
Catch the train of thought ...
Progress from your station ...
To the City beyond.

Become a person of true belief ...
Remove the shrug of Make believe ....
Shift the focus from your past ...
Makeshift belief to a firm belief.

The Keeper of her Soul ...

I am the mistress...
He is ...
The Keeper of my Soul.

A soul deprived of feelings ...
A soul devastated by life ...A soul on the move always ...
A never trusting soul...
He is the keeper of this soul.

In dark cold nights ...
Entwined in her miseries and dreams ...
She can feel him touch her soul ...
Yet a torturous match ...
The Keeper and Her Soul.

The gnarled thoughts of slavery ...
The Trojan Horse of today ...
This Helen is a captive ...
Of the Keeper of her Soul.

The concubine of the night ...
The songstress of yesteryear ...
The writer of her own story ...
She is the Keeper of her own Soul.

All mighty and powerful ...
As vicious as her emotions ...
As strong as her desires ....
He is the Keeper of her Soul.

A Life of Misery ...

It's a life of solitude ...
A life of lonely days and nights ...
It's a life of misery she leads ...
A make believe ... makeshift life ...
A life of lies ...
A life of flowery prose ...
Copious poetry ...
Yet, a very lonely life.
A bare existence ...
Living for no purpose at all...All her time and talent....
Wasted on lunatics from the other World.

She raves and rants ,,,
Chants and cries ...
Crocodile tears  for attention ...
She makes an utter fool of herself ...
She ends up being laughed at.

She knows not what they think of her ...
Speak ill of her nature ...
The make fun of her unskilled words...
Guffaw at her antics ...
A fool she truly is ...
Her ego high and mighty ...
In order to feed the demon within ...
She's sold her soul to the Evil.

A life of misery unfolding each day ....
Each night she retires a bit tired ...
For she is exhausted ....
Her addiction a big satire.

Her lies ....
Her blatant lies ...
Her soul ripped open ...
Her desires an invitation ...
Attract the loathsome flies to her ...
Her honey dipped yet cheap words ...
Like garbage from the dumps around.

She fumbles ...
She realizes ...
Yet she makes a fool of herself...
She is no woman to be respected ..,
But, a blotch in the name of one.

Sense doesn't prevail in her mind ...
An insane soul trapped within ...
She is but a fool ...
On a journey into her own ....
A World which is her downfall ...
Too late for her to snatch free ...
Her wretched hand covered in blood....
Muck and soot her destiny ...
A life of misery her story.

Commonsense not her forte'...
She leads her life in disharmony ....
A monotonous life of solitude ....
But no bliss in sight for her.

A life of Misery ...
A boring and tuneless sad song.