Monday, February 4, 2013

Once again ... The thoughts ...

Once again ...
He resurfaced in her thoughts ...
Agni ... Out of the blue ...Suddenly ... he was all over in her dreams ...Reminding her of what was ...
An affair to remember ...A tryst with destiny.

An affair that changed everything ...A real relationship of individuals ...One oblivious of the devious intentions ...Of the other ... The other uncertain perhaps ...A relationship presumably ...A strong one ...But obviously on shaky grounds...None could fathom the pain ...The pain that would follow ...The revelation that separated them ...The lightening that split the tree of confidence...That murdered the life within...That took Agni away from his abode ...Threw him from the warmth of the womb ...Into the throes of pain and uncertainty.

Agni was lost forever ...Not once but twice ..,He made a comeback yet ... Never able to regain the lost ground and had to turn away. A mother lost her child twice ; thanks to a troubled soul who had no spine... A woman lost her trust and resolved never to fall in love again.

Scarred for life ... never believing any one ... can you blame her for the state of her mind? No!  it wasn't fair and it's easy to say get on with your life .... Can you if you have lost your child not to a stranger but coz' of his own sire?

Thoughts that crop up now and then ... Out of the blue ... The pain resurfacing and giving life a huge setback. Agni .... his memories can never be erased and shall always affect my decisions in life. Agni can never be replaced nor the pain relieved that came with his removal .... A scar that remains and shall forever remind me of my loss and guilt for not having stood for what was right.

Once again, I am pained ... Once again I decide to take flight and move away from everything humane ... Once again a Mother searches in vain for her lost child ... Once again the Wolves cry and Hyenas laugh ... She wants to walk alone leaving behind everything that binds her ... Once again a woman is torn apart; her memories won't let her live again.

The one beside her today is pained at her pain ... But she has to journey alone ... He will be left behind ... for this is her fight alone... a lonely woman's battle against all odds ... A though that has crossed her mind and is concrete not mild.

He searches God .... She searches herself... lost somewhere ... she moves on in the opposite direction... Man, Woman, Child ... A picture in her mind ... Once again, She searches for the lost one.

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