Master of my fate.... Captain of my soul...

Yes you are....
Master of my fate and the captain of my soul...
You steer my ship through turbulent waters ...
You manoevure the boat to safe shores...
My navigator on starless nights...
My beacon from lighthouse far out..

Rocky shores and rough weather...
Do not affect me...
When I set sail with you...
Monsters and creatures from depths unknown....
Stay away when they know...
My master and commander is with me.

You are the star spangled night's guide....
You are the seagull that gives hope...
You are the Albatross on rocky mountains...
Giving hope to this weary traveller....
It's time to come home O' sailor...
Of deep blue sea....
My lover, my life....
I await you with open arms...
An embrace to comfort your tired soul.....
Master of my fate.... Captain of my soul....
I am all ready to set sail with you.....
I love you.

You are the one for whom I breathe today.....

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

And, you my love stand tall....

You are the one I look upto...

You are the one I live and die for....

Never, ever, ever think that your life is over, but know always that each day, each hour, each moment is another beginning, another opportunity, another chance to re-create yourself anew.

Neale Donald Walsch

My love , your words bring tears of joy in my eyes.....

I know my man is the bestest of them all....

No one can match your persona....

You are who you are ....

And am proud of you.

You came back in my life ..

When I was down and out....

You held my hand....

You pulled me out of my swamp....

You are the one I live and die for...

You are the one for whom I breathe today...

You are in every breath of mine...

You ride every wave of my heart beat....

You make my world a place to live in...

Your thought brings a smile to my lips...

And when I smile...

The world smiles with me...

So my dear, you are the one who.... 

Spreads the cheer in this world..

You are my world...

You are my whole and soul...

You are the one for whom I breathe today and everyday.....

The woman pours her heart out....I am a woman too....

The woman pours her heart out ...
And he mutters what a sham...
I say, what with her emotions welling up within her...
Let her pour it out...
He queries, then why do you get affected?
I reply, with tears in my eyes..... I am a woman too.

I am destiny's child.... watched by someone up above....
What designs he has for me... he knows...
I know, I have to follow my heart...
Follow my man.... wherever he leads me...
I trust him.... I am his child to spoil....
Am spoilt silly by him always...
I love him from ages ago....
He was always there in every step of my life ....
Though as a far fetched thought...
Attached to others along the journey of life....
My man was tied up in affairs that left him ....
Bereft of any feelings....
With a bitter aftertaste in his mouth...
He had become a sorry shadow of his regal self....
He found me.... destiny...
I accepted him.... My destiny....
Now, a new story unfurls....
A new saga to tell....
 A new poem to be written...
 A fable to be remembered always...
I am a woman .... his woman....
His story to write with me ... is my goal...
Let the ball roll.....

I love the way he looks at me...
I remember his touch.... so gentle...
His kiss... so passionate...
Lest I lose myself here itself.....
I better put a full stop to this outburst of emotions...
Love my man..... not known to love anyone ever so much....
Man, I love you my soul mate...
You know me so well....
Every emotion... every unspoken word...
I am a woman.... your woman...
And I pour my heart out to you....
I know, you are waiting to read this outpouring....
I write for you and you only.....
I am a woman in love....
I am your woman...

The wrath of a woman scorned....

God forbid the wrath of a woman scorned........
She raves and rants...
She  digs her nails in his flesh and tears him apart.
This is what she is doing .... to him... my love...
He turns and squirms in pain...
Not a word from his mouth...
A painful, hurt in his eyes ...
I am helpless I can't wipe...
I wish I could embrace him ..
And wipe his tears of despair...
I know you are hurting baby..
I am always there.

I read her work and understand her...
Fathom her feelings and shame...
She is brazenly shameless...
A stigma in the name of love.
She left him high and dry...
Stole his status and assets...
What else can he offer her..?
Not his self to this .... witch of the dark night.

She has made life hell for him...
A living hell in which he chose to burn alone...
His skin scorched, his soul roasted...
He still stands tall.

His love for life at a standstill...
He still moves on...
Fulfilling his role......
He tries hard to forget the pain...
Slyly lurking behind his smile......
I can see it....
I want to embrace this giant cauldron of love, passion and pain...
Give him the love he truly deserves....
He is mine ....
 Not hers to break...
I shall cross the ocean to seek his love.......
I shall fight the devil to keep his loving heart joyous....
He deserves the best and ...
He is the best....
He is my man...
And I will make him the happiest.......
His days of agony and pain are over..
Love and happiness has taken over ...
He shall always be his smiling self..
The man I fell in love with eons ago...
My Knight in shining armour...
My love, my life....

The wrath of that woman, shall no more affect him....
I am the balm that heals his wounds...
I am the joy he seeks...
My smiles are for him...
My soul is already his....
We married each other around the fire of love....and the sufferings of ages...
Two souls binding in unison for a heavenly bliss forever.

My love , am waiting....
Am waiting for you ...
My Phoenix...
To rise from the ashes ...
And soar once again...
Majestically across the sky...
And sweep me off my feet ...
Into your arms...your wings...
Big and strong...
My love...am waiting....

Gosh! What a feeling love is.....

You are back in my life....
Like a whiff of fresh perfume....
I don't know how to react....
It's like a euphoria...
A feeling I can't contain.

Gosh! What a feeling love is.....
A feeling only I can fathom....
A feeling that leaves me breathless...
A feeling that makes me swoon...
I lose all sense of time and timidity....
I lose myself in this flow of emotions....
I display my love selflessly...
Oblivious of the looks of the world around...
A feeling that gets me into trouble...
A feeling that makes my life reel.....
A feeling deep down...
That this time round he will stay.

There has to some semblance to this madness...
There has to be a beginning or an end...
There has to be that something...
That spark, that says...
Yes , it's true this time round.

I am pretty sure...
This time round it's true... I am sure....Yes I am....

Girls night out..... confessions galore...

Omigosh! On a lark, the three of us, Ruchi, Jayshree and I decided to spend the night out at Jayshree's place on the outskirts of Mumbai. What a night ! It had no end in sight....laughter, sadness and bucketful of tears.... we let it all out.

We just poured our hearts out, letting our feelings flow. It all began with non stop laughter and then baring of our souls. Soul sisters we became .... we came , we felt and we conquered all our inhibitions and worked on being together for the rest of our lives.

Every little thing, past and present and future aspirations were shared. Heartbreaks discussed and salty tears shed. 

Girls night out , was one helluva experience with a hangover for me the next morning and a hellish time for Ruchi and Jayshree nursing me throughout the day.

Thank you girls for making this one night a  night to remember always. A night that brought us together. 

इस रात की सुबह नहीं हुई, बस रात कट गयी, हँसते रोते......

Questions to which there are no answers...

Questions , questions, questions galore....
Questions to which there are no answers.
We go on cribbing and inquiring....
We go on in life all the time crying.


Wish I could find all the answers at the click of a button...
My keyboard clicking away ...
Searching answers...
To innumerable questions.


Questions that try to seek answers to the pointless existence of ours,
Queries that bog the human mind...
Questions, questions ever questioning....
When to stop questioning?


What a cluttered mind do I have....
What a  meager existence...
What a non entity have I become....
What is it that brings the house down?

A never ending stream of what ifs...
An ocean vast and deep......
The human mind steeped with emotions........
A solitary existence to the fore.

The deeper you go... The more meaning it attains...
Is there an end to this meaningless quest?
Or, is it just the beginning?
The beginning of a journey ....
Long left unexplored....
A journey to the deep fathoms of human mind...
A path unfolding the unknown.

Time and again , I have failed....
Time and again, I have had faith...
How long will this battle go on?
No one knows, the human mind..
The fights and arguments that ensue there....
Are felt by the heart hurting all over again.

Life comes up a big cropper,
Serves hurt on a platter,
When will this pain end?
When will life actually begin?

Questions to which there are no answers...
Questions which bring me down...
Questions plenty..
Answers none...
I walk alone again....
With questions to keep me company....
Seeking answers not seen around.

Uff yeh Mohabbat....

मैं  आपसे मोहब्बत क्यूँ करती हूँ ? 

काश मैं यह बात जान पाती. पता नहीं क्यूँ , पर आप मेरी एक ज़रुरत हो, एक नशा हो जो जाता ही नहीं. 

क्या करून इस आदत का?

क्या करून इस इबादत का?

वक़्त का तकाज़ा है, प्यार में मैंने सब हारा है.......

अब भी दिल टूटने का डर है, पर क्या करून यह दिल हारा है....

अब कदम पीछे क्यूँ हटाऊँ?

नहीं , मैं कदम ना हटाउंगी....

मैंने प्यार किया है चोरी नहीं की

जब तनहा होती हूँ तोह सोचती हूँ....

क्यूँ मैं ऐसी हूँ?

क्या है जो मैं ढूँढती हूँ?

किसका इंतज़ार है मुझे?

और बस एक चेहरा नज़र आता है..... आपका

आप न होते तोह भी यह जीवन चलता रहता,

पर अब इस में एक सुरूर आ गया है...

एक नशा , एक ऐसा नशा जो जाए नहीं जाता

बस एक एहसास दिला जाता है..

कल फिर आएगा....

और उनकी याद मुझे फिर आएगी...

और तड़पा के , तनहा करके जायेगी

जो यह जुदाई है.. काश ना होती..

पर है... और एक निशानी है, हमारे प्यार की....

उस प्यार की कहानी है... जिसका हर मौड़ पे इम्तेहान होता है....

पर वोह तो वहीँ रहता है....राहें बदल जाती है...

पर एक मौड़ ऐसा आता है... जहाँ हमारे रास्ते फिर मिलते हैं ...

और हम फिर एक हो जाते हैं

उफ़ यह मोहब्बत.... उफ़ यह तन्हाई.... उफ़ यह जुदाई