Impotent potency ...

Hmmm ... Potent impotency ...
Or, Impotent potency ...
All the same ... Just twisted ....
A sly aim at impotent humans ...
And, potent possibilities.

You really have to wrack your brains ...
The grey matter to fathom what I imply ...
Commoners, thinking uncommon ...
An uncanny feeling within ...
Restless motions ...
Bladders full ...
Yet incontinence due to continuity.

Hard to decipher ...
A code written ...
In words above ...
Read between the statements to know what I mean ...
But, know not for you are but a commoner.

A common misnomer ...
A threat by and large ...
I loom large above you ...
Towering tall ...
High and mighty ...
I am the power you dread ...
Day in and Day out ...
You glance behind ...
To see if I am there ...
Tailing you or not.

Your fears are unfounded ...
Look deep within ...
The rogue who has hounded ...
Is your own self ...
With self inflicted wounds ...
You are but a shallow self ...
Of what could have been.

Do not laugh ...
Your impotency shows through ...
Potential you have not ...
Impotent potency aplenty.

Inner Peace ...

Some take ages and a whole life time ... yet find no peace ... Inner peace .... I have found my peace ... My inner peace.

My inner peace is being happy and content with what I have ... Whatever I wish for .... I get without asking ... isn't that a sign that divine blessings have been bestowed upon me. Next to impossible for some but not for me. Am at peace and content with the way my life is today.

With the love of my life standing tall and regal next to me ... With everything falling in place for me ... I am happy ... Inner peace and calm sweeping over me.

Am overwhelmed with the grace of the supreme being bringing warmth and happiness in my life this Winter .. that this has become a symbol of lasting love to me.

My life coming one full circle ... Moksha attained on Earth. Something people search in vain ... I attained with being a Karmayogi. May seem silly but I believe you get everything here on earth ... Your Heaven and Your Hell here itself.... crystal clear justice.

The power of the Supreme Being cannot be denied ... or overlooked ... The power that brings you your justice here on Earth.

I have attained my Inner Peace ... am happy with the turn of events ... He by my side  ... what else is needed to be successful? Love and peace ... My story ... My life ... A beautiful example ... some events just change the whole story ... Twist the tale in your favour.

My tale ... my Story ... my Inner Peace ... Neither a fable nor a myth ... Blatant Reality.

Abhinav saverey ka Sapna ... You passed your own VERDICT

Ek nayi subah ... something new ...
Ek Abhinav savera ...
Saath mein ek sunhara Sapna...

Guess.... all these mobile companies should get such good lines for their mobile ringtones. Companies like Reliance where employees are always on Social Networking sites having fun at the company's expense .... Tata Docomo ... no wonder it's not doing too well coz' again their partners busy flirting around .. playing bouncers for unknown women. Gosh! What has this country come to ... false faces ... false names ... and yet people go after the Government ... Government has failed coz' we have such people in our Country who think they are talking sense but in reality just pure nonsense.

People... people ... double faced people ... not personalities ... just commoners trying to live an alternate life ... getting a high from it ... just for the thrill of it .... Husbands and wives with multiple fake accounts ... guess  this is their level of imagination ... flirt and have fun ... get a high to keep their relationships happy.

But, frankly asking ... Are they really happy? They seek solace in a virtual World ... real World just a step away ... yet living a false life ... leading into false hopes and dreams.

Pristine green hills behind ... A beautiful sanctuary in City life .... yet people running around ... in a World beyond ... Machine world with wires for company ... and faceless names and treachery in a summary.

Sad truth ... but, truth after all .... Cranky brains ... Illogical thoughts ... that's all to their being... Living in make believe World ... Grow up they haven't yet ... Still in the World of dreams and creams .... mechanical in their daily purpose ... living robot like .... partying thinking that is life ... that's no life .... just a mirage ... nothing but a slippery fall once reality strikes.

Next door neighbours of mine ... Yet unaware of me ... Today you stand exposed with all your falsehood steeped in my grey matter ... The truth exposed ... bare naked ... you stand before me ... I am no judge ... you passed your own VERDICT.

If I get down to unmasking the so called Zorros ... an upheaval it shall cause ... so beware O nincompoops ... don't walk tall like a Peacock ... There is nothing to be proud in your hour of shame.

Wait for the New Dawn ... the brand New Morning ... Abhinav Savera ... Ek Sapna ... Mein hoon kaun?   ... The New DON.

A Silly feeling ...

You are getting a silly feeling!
What kind of a feeling is it?
Is it that you are just too happy?
Or, You dread being in love with me?

Nah.. Silly me!

I know you care a lot ...
You worry a lot for me ...
Am fine dear ... Just wrapped in work ...
There is no substitute for Hard work ...
And, In my zest to make a mark ...
Carve a niche' ...
Am neglecting you a bit ...
Aren't you proud of who I am ...
endless possibilities waiting to embrace me ...
Just like you ...
Waiting ...
All I need to do is ...
Take that first step ...
Towards you and...
The opportunities knocking at my door.

A silly feeling it is ...
Just silly ... Nothing to it ...
Am fine ... Just a bit busy ...
But you are never far from me ...
Always in my thoughts ...
Permanent in my heart.

You are a pertinent part of my life ...
Important for my self realization ...
Important for my actualization ...
Imperative to my emotional well being ...
You are YOU and no one can take that place ....
You are my own ...
My final call ...
My Love ... My Life ...
None can take that away from you .. what is yours... is yours only....
A commitment for next life.

On this day ...

On this day of The first day of January 2013, a Tuesday ... I proclaim and openly so ... my love for my beloved Papa Bear .... My stoic, cool , a bit Crazy, lovable, mildly irritating, patient, foolish at times, Strong, yet silent .... Papa Bear, Papa Bear ... I just happen to love you out of the blue .. yeah met you when I was feeling the blues ... you made me surface from my vain attempts at drowning ... Yeah, I love you for saving me .... I love you for being there ... And Here today.

Your gift to me ... your heart ... cut open ... bleeding yet throbbing .... Just for me ... I can never match up to it ... a brilliantly beautiful gift ... your love ... I thrive in it.

You are my very own ... and shall remain so till eternity .. even death cannot part us now ... through life and it's travails ... I travel beside you .... My love am there always ... in your heart and soul ... am the very essence that defines our love.

The colour of Love ... A deep crimson ... silky touch and fabric so soft ... I love the gift of love and On this day ... I write my heart to you ... I will it to you ... It's yours to take .. forever yours and mine to give.

This day I dedicate my life to your service ... yes. service at your beck and call... Always ...

On this day ... I say am Crazily in LOVE with you Papa Bear ...

This Christmas ...

Yeah! This Christmas ... I gave you my heart ...
I gave you my soul ...
I gave you my word ...
Nothings gonna change that for us ...
I am sure ...
You are sure ...
What the heck does it matter ...
If the world is unsure ....
I care about you ...
I love you ...
Am there for you ...
Beyond that promise ...
What else can I give you?

Know me ...
Know me better ...
This is me ...
All for you ...
We haven't met ...
Yet we feel ...
So intensely 'bout each other ...
Does it matter what they feel? ....
No, it doesn't ...
So, why worry ...
Let's not hurry ...
Just slowly ...
Love each other ....
Till eternity.
If there be another life ...
It's betrothed to you ...
You know it well ...
I need not dispel ...
Your feelings ...
Or Quell your fears ...
I am there ...
Now and forever ...
Even in our next life ...
If it comes of being ...
This Christmas and all the coming years ...
I am there as you are there for me.

Love you Papa Bear ...
Goldilocks really loves you.

Suddenly ...

Suddenly, a feeling ....
A feeling of guilt ...
Of remorse ...
Can't say why ...
But it has infused my mind ...
Should I have bitten into the chocolate ...
The forbidden vice ...
I shouldn't have ...
Not good for me at all ...
Not good for the dental makeup ...
Nor good for the lipid retention ability ...
Of my waistline ...
Not good for the high it gives ...
Making me more active than usual ...'Sleepless nights followed ...
No, the forbidden fruit shouldn't have been bitten into....
It would lead to reactions of rejection ...
A sadness filling my being ...
When the after effects are gone ...
The lows felt when the chocolate...
The forbidden fruit is gone from existence ...
From my being ...
Suddenly .... The guilt pangs ....
Suddenly, a feeling of remorse ...
Am not game for having any more Chocolates...
New Year's Resolution ...
Go forbidden fruit ...
Ye go, into your basket forever ...
Go Sinful Chocolate ...
Get back into the pod from ye come forth ....
YIKES!!!!!

As the Year Ends ...

As the Year Ends ... when I look back ... I see a different ME at the beginning and a whole new ME today.
What a drastic change from someone who trusted blindly to a person who doesn't trust anymore.

What made ME who I am? No, not someone per se, but circumstances ....My decisions gone awry ... Blind trust and faith .... catapulted by deceive ... deceit and fowl play ... in Business and in life.

But, towards the end, today am happy ... am an evolved being ... Success at a cost but nevertheless; Success with my Loved ones beside me and a whole new World waiting to embrace me. The New year will see me busier, with little or no time for my beloveds but yes happier doing what I do best and giving them the best that life has to offer on Earth.

I shall be travelling more often, infact living out of the suitcase will be the new mantra for the coming times...
Always on the move living my dream of Travelling and enjoying life to the hilt. A life chosen solely by me ... Leaving all care to the wind... Absolving myself of all the responsibilities and moving on to newer roles to play. Living my dreams and aspirations ... no expectations ... on the move with few essentials ... moving towards greener pastures and environs ... friends and foes left behind ... a World to explore ... new ventures to capitalise upon.

Without doubt ... A new adventure begins .. with new friends in tow and newer horizons to conquer.

Looking back I can quip ... I had a life well lived ... where the last year saw me losing hope in loved ones ; it brought me closer to my family and the real people in my life, some left behind , some caught up with me and brought a smile back on my lips. I found a strength within me; I knew not of ... I found my roaring self ... silent yet strong ... I realised being a woman is no joke ... a woman of substance with strong values and stronger resolve.

My long lost family was found ... Found a voice in their support ... Found MYSELF ... Found my Destiny.
The never ending search began and continues ... coz' life can't be a fullstop ... It's a question mark.

As the year ends ... I look back and wave a goodbye to the old self and welcome the new ME ... Wholeheartedly.