A Silly feeling ...

You are getting a silly feeling!
What kind of a feeling is it?
Is it that you are just too happy?
Or, You dread being in love with me?

Nah.. Silly me!

I know you care a lot ...
You worry a lot for me ...
Am fine dear ... Just wrapped in work ...
There is no substitute for Hard work ...
And, In my zest to make a mark ...
Carve a niche' ...
Am neglecting you a bit ...
Aren't you proud of who I am ...
endless possibilities waiting to embrace me ...
Just like you ...
Waiting ...
All I need to do is ...
Take that first step ...
Towards you and...
The opportunities knocking at my door.

A silly feeling it is ...
Just silly ... Nothing to it ...
Am fine ... Just a bit busy ...
But you are never far from me ...
Always in my thoughts ...
Permanent in my heart.

You are a pertinent part of my life ...
Important for my self realization ...
Important for my actualization ...
Imperative to my emotional well being ...
You are YOU and no one can take that place ....
You are my own ...
My final call ...
My Love ... My Life ...
None can take that away from you .. what is yours... is yours only....
A commitment for next life.

On this day ...

On this day of The first day of January 2013, a Tuesday ... I proclaim and openly so ... my love for my beloved Papa Bear .... My stoic, cool , a bit Crazy, lovable, mildly irritating, patient, foolish at times, Strong, yet silent .... Papa Bear, Papa Bear ... I just happen to love you out of the blue .. yeah met you when I was feeling the blues ... you made me surface from my vain attempts at drowning ... Yeah, I love you for saving me .... I love you for being there ... And Here today.

Your gift to me ... your heart ... cut open ... bleeding yet throbbing .... Just for me ... I can never match up to it ... a brilliantly beautiful gift ... your love ... I thrive in it.

You are my very own ... and shall remain so till eternity .. even death cannot part us now ... through life and it's travails ... I travel beside you .... My love am there always ... in your heart and soul ... am the very essence that defines our love.

The colour of Love ... A deep crimson ... silky touch and fabric so soft ... I love the gift of love and On this day ... I write my heart to you ... I will it to you ... It's yours to take .. forever yours and mine to give.

This day I dedicate my life to your service ... yes. service at your beck and call... Always ...

On this day ... I say am Crazily in LOVE with you Papa Bear ...

This Christmas ...

Yeah! This Christmas ... I gave you my heart ...
I gave you my soul ...
I gave you my word ...
Nothings gonna change that for us ...
I am sure ...
You are sure ...
What the heck does it matter ...
If the world is unsure ....
I care about you ...
I love you ...
Am there for you ...
Beyond that promise ...
What else can I give you?

Know me ...
Know me better ...
This is me ...
All for you ...
We haven't met ...
Yet we feel ...
So intensely 'bout each other ...
Does it matter what they feel? ....
No, it doesn't ...
So, why worry ...
Let's not hurry ...
Just slowly ...
Love each other ....
Till eternity.
If there be another life ...
It's betrothed to you ...
You know it well ...
I need not dispel ...
Your feelings ...
Or Quell your fears ...
I am there ...
Now and forever ...
Even in our next life ...
If it comes of being ...
This Christmas and all the coming years ...
I am there as you are there for me.

Love you Papa Bear ...
Goldilocks really loves you.

Suddenly ...

Suddenly, a feeling ....
A feeling of guilt ...
Of remorse ...
Can't say why ...
But it has infused my mind ...
Should I have bitten into the chocolate ...
The forbidden vice ...
I shouldn't have ...
Not good for me at all ...
Not good for the dental makeup ...
Nor good for the lipid retention ability ...
Of my waistline ...
Not good for the high it gives ...
Making me more active than usual ...'Sleepless nights followed ...
No, the forbidden fruit shouldn't have been bitten into....
It would lead to reactions of rejection ...
A sadness filling my being ...
When the after effects are gone ...
The lows felt when the chocolate...
The forbidden fruit is gone from existence ...
From my being ...
Suddenly .... The guilt pangs ....
Suddenly, a feeling of remorse ...
Am not game for having any more Chocolates...
New Year's Resolution ...
Go forbidden fruit ...
Ye go, into your basket forever ...
Go Sinful Chocolate ...
Get back into the pod from ye come forth ....
YIKES!!!!!

As the Year Ends ...

As the Year Ends ... when I look back ... I see a different ME at the beginning and a whole new ME today.
What a drastic change from someone who trusted blindly to a person who doesn't trust anymore.

What made ME who I am? No, not someone per se, but circumstances ....My decisions gone awry ... Blind trust and faith .... catapulted by deceive ... deceit and fowl play ... in Business and in life.

But, towards the end, today am happy ... am an evolved being ... Success at a cost but nevertheless; Success with my Loved ones beside me and a whole new World waiting to embrace me. The New year will see me busier, with little or no time for my beloveds but yes happier doing what I do best and giving them the best that life has to offer on Earth.

I shall be travelling more often, infact living out of the suitcase will be the new mantra for the coming times...
Always on the move living my dream of Travelling and enjoying life to the hilt. A life chosen solely by me ... Leaving all care to the wind... Absolving myself of all the responsibilities and moving on to newer roles to play. Living my dreams and aspirations ... no expectations ... on the move with few essentials ... moving towards greener pastures and environs ... friends and foes left behind ... a World to explore ... new ventures to capitalise upon.

Without doubt ... A new adventure begins .. with new friends in tow and newer horizons to conquer.

Looking back I can quip ... I had a life well lived ... where the last year saw me losing hope in loved ones ; it brought me closer to my family and the real people in my life, some left behind , some caught up with me and brought a smile back on my lips. I found a strength within me; I knew not of ... I found my roaring self ... silent yet strong ... I realised being a woman is no joke ... a woman of substance with strong values and stronger resolve.

My long lost family was found ... Found a voice in their support ... Found MYSELF ... Found my Destiny.
The never ending search began and continues ... coz' life can't be a fullstop ... It's a question mark.

As the year ends ... I look back and wave a goodbye to the old self and welcome the new ME ... Wholeheartedly.

Once upon a time ...

Once upon a time ... A damsel in distress got lost in a concrete jungle ... in the waves of technology she found solace but was lost there too ... along came a Knight ... a Knight in shining armour and whisked her away ... to his land ... His World ... a paradise where he kept her under his watchful eyes ... loving her.... caring for her .... a world where none could harm her ... Her paradise ... His World.

The World and all its cares left behind ... They lived happily .... As long as the World lived ... their story became a legend ... For generations to come ... Some say it's a myth ... some say just a story ... But aren't all Love stories somebody's stories? ... Where do you get the literature for that?

The Knight and his Dame .. dared to live their lives together ... they dared the society and all its taboos and rules ... Prohibitions and narrow orthodox thoughts ... They lived through it all ...  They lived life Kingsize .... The King and His Queen.

Their loved ones accepted what was ... for they saw the passion and its intensity ... the fiery emotions and the resolve ... Come what may ... A story with a happy ending ... A story to be written about.

Ting Tong !!!! I am shaken from my reverie ... A dream with open eyes ... A good story ... But, all in thoughts and imagination ... What else do you expect from a Creative Writer ? Answer... STORIES ....
Am a Wordsmith ... I weave a web of words ... Believing is your prerogative .... Spinning is mine.

Once Upon a Time ...

All I Know ...

PAPA BEAR ...

Loving you is all I know now ...
None other can touch me ...
Nor my soul ...
Betrothed to you ... am bound by my love ...
Sheer contrast to what I was ...
What I could be ...
Am smitten yet again by the Love Bug.

Knowing you ...
Your feel for freedom ...
Your take on freedom ...
Yet, I enslave myself in your love ...
Ensnared by your loving gaze ...
Ensconed in your arms.

O' Papa Bear!
I just love you ...
You make love seem so simple ...
So uncomplicated ...
Am deeply engrossed in your thoughts ...
Hooked on to the nectar of your love.

I love you Papa Bear ....
Love you a lot ...
Immensely, deeply ...
I feel you next to me ...
Just pure projection of pure love.

All I know is loving you ... Papa Bear...

Reflections ... Internalization ...

Mirror  Mirror on the Wall ... No not the fairest of them all ... but show me what I have gone through and how have I grown from my experiences?

The mirror says ... Come let's go on this journey together ...

We move back in time ... time doesn't lie ...

I see a shy little toddler clutching on to her mother's saree going to school ....

I see an introvert child .... happy in a beautiful seaside sleepy island .... going to a beautiful Preschool ... memories that can never be erased and that have shaped my today....

I see a giggling girl, busy making clay dolls and play things ... playing alone ... catching butterflies and insects ... earthworms ... caterpillars ... Playing all alone ...

I see a beautiful teenager ... immersed in books ... tinkering with gadgets ... inventing new ones ... living in a World of her own ...

Youth saw the girl blossom ... flower into a mesmerizing angel of love ... But, still "Touch me not" ...

Middle age sees a lady ... Spirited in thoughts and deeds moving full steam ahead ... Single in her endeavour to bring about a change ... Still Single but proudly standing tall ....

The baby skin giving way to fine wrinkles ... yet in those lines you can see a fighting spirit ... of a quiet child to a woman of substance.... A silent stride ... away from limelight .... away from mayhem and noise ... A world of dreams and aspirations ... of creativity ... A beautiful beautiful World of tomorrow ... A legacy to leave behind for Children of the World.

The mirror doesn't lie ... it didn't lie ... It gives me strength to move further and make a point ... a flagship of change ... moving forth with her endeavours ... single in her thoughts  yet not alone  in her movement ...

In the reflections I see my dreams coming true ... I internalize my success without an ego ... Proudly I march ahead ... Alone yet head held high... New horizons to explore ... New lands to discover ... New school of thought to bring forth to the World.... a real legacy to leave behind for my own to be proud of.