It 's been....

It's been long coming....
The rage and passion....
Of unquenchable thirst and dreams....
How long ?
How long before I realize....
How long before I truly destroy myself...
Annihilate my mortal self....
Before I can realize my dreams.
I dream with open eyes...
Searching for the right one to take along....
It's a journey from beginning to end...
A path to create of my own.
Somewhere deep down....
In the core of my heart I know...
It's been long coming...
But, come it will.
It's ready to burst out ....
All set to break new paths....
Boundaries awashed with poems...
Of love passion and dreams fulfilled.
Have already taken the plunge...
Struggling to keep afloat...
But that's not the end...
It's the beginning...
I need to swim along with the current....
Strong shoulders and stamina needed...
The shore in sight...
But that's not the end of the journey...
I shall explore the yonders beyond the sandy shore....
The murky forest and hills beyond....
It's been long coming...
And, come it will.
The rest of the World thinks I am crazy...
To have given up everything for my dreams....
But, I gave up the my dreams for the World...
What did I achieve?
So, It's time to live for my dreams...
Time to come of my own.
It's been long ....
The journey winding and tiring...
But what the heck....
Am a tough nut to crack...
And, crack I won't.
It's been long...
It's been hectic...
It's been coming...
Come home to Momma baby...
Come home to your dreams.

All I know is...

All I know is that I have loved and lost...
Am lost myself ...
No idea where I am...
Or where am I headed...
All I know is that there's no end...
No end to this suffering...
Am suffering in silence...
No one to turn to...
No door to knock upon.

It was so beautiful...
No worries...
Nothing to bother about...
And suddenly...
My whole world fell apart...
There was no pain...
Yet an ache...
Memories bringing forth...
Unknown emotions ...
Painfully fond memories...
A story to tell someday...
It wasn't so painful...
Just the sound of breaking glass...
A shattering screech deep within...
WHY?
Just a why... A question mark...
An unanswered question...
Why?
All I know is...
That I have loved and loved only...
Yet I remain thirsty...
Yet my love remains unrequited...
An emptiness...
Beyond which is an abyss....
A deep dark never ending journey...
All alone....
Just by myself...
Walking into the sunset all alone.

A must for those who have loved and lost....

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A Mistake....

A mistake, you say....
It was all a mistake....
You realize now...
A full season and a barren womb later...
You realize it's a mistake.

Shock, is my expression....
Colour drained from my face...
No thoughts....
Just a blank expression.

A mistake you said it was....
It wasn't a mistake....
When your eyes pierced through me...
Across the room...the first time...
It wasn't a mistake ....
When you made the first contact...
It wasn't a mistake when you whisked me away....
To hills far away on a wet night....
All those dinner dates...
All those crazy nights...
They were a Mistake????
Then why realize now?
Why now?

A mistake, you say...
Just a plain mistake for you...
But, my entire life ruined ...
My life in shambles....
And, you say... IT'S A MISTAKE!!!!!

Eerie Silence.....

No more waiting now....
Just an emptiness....
An eerie silence...
A vast expanse of nothingness...
Lots of time...
Yet no time at all.

The hollow emptiness....
Filling the space within....
Mind in a distasteful state...
Not knowing what to do...
Not knowing what lies ahead...
An eerie silence in my life...
A pitstop or the end.

Numbness has covered my senses...
I cry yet I don't cry....
No feelings...
No expressions....
Just an eerie silence in the heart....
The mind with a burning ache.

What went wrong?

Euphoria... No more!

No more pleasant surprises...
No more waiting for the knock at the door...
No more nagging to grab attention...
No more smiles on the lips...
It's gone....
The euphoria is gone.....
Euphoria.... No more!

Some tears streaming down....
Leaving their mark when dry....
No hope left.....
No thoughts....
Just a blank mind.

An uncanny feeling....
A dread in the mind....
A broken heart....
Nursing it no more....
Mending it no more...
Letting it hurt...
The ache reminding me...
What a fool I have been.

In one statement it was all over....
Finished... Period....
No fanfare....
No bells....
Just a sense of doom....
And, it was all over...
Just like that...
Just like that all was forgotten...
Forgotten were moments of laughter....
Forgotten were moments of togetherness...
Forgotten....
Just like that.

Euphoria... No more!
Nothingness...
Blank space....
No thoughts....
No feelings...
Silence....
Dead silence!

Four leaf clover....

He loves me, he loves me not....
The as always questions...
A girl ponders over...
Plucking the leaves ...
Of the four leaf clover.

An answer seldom answered...
A question that remains...
Wondering always..
What lies lurking...
Behind those heavy lashed eyes.

Berries of paradise...
So rare to find...
Deeply treasured...
Leaving the past behind...
I gallop forth....
Like a mare on a mission...
A mission of love....
To consume the fruit forbidden.

Every new dawn bringing in new hope...
Every dusk taking depression away...
That's the dream to achieve...
A long way to go before I really sleep.

A whole bunch of aims in life...
A sprig of life to live...
Lots to achieve...
Long way to go....
A stretch of road unknown...
But him beside me...
My silent beacon...
I know I can pull my wagon...
The mare I am....
Of the finest stallion around.

Four leaf clover no more to shred...
Four leaf clover no more ...
I am game for come what may....
I know for now am secure.

Yet again.... I drink the nectar alone...

I drink to forget...
I drink to sleep my blues away...
Yet again,...
I drink the nectar again..
The bitter sweet nectar....
The drink of Gods....
The forbidden drink...
Yet again, I take to it....
To while my time away.

The nectar makes me forget...
The wily ways of the world....
The torment...
The trauma...
The jilt....
The guilt.,...All the sins....
Of others and me ....
Everything wrong I did...
All the wrong done to me.

Yet again,.. I drink the nectar...
The bitter sweet nectar....
To while my melancholy times away.