Ctrl + alt + Delete

Ya, that's the mood I am in and really if you come in front of me I sure will delete you from the face of Earth..... You are out n out from my life and that's it . Period.

Why did you have to enter my life and ruin it all for me? Was it written on my face that I am stupid?

These are the thoughts that crossed my mind and guess what? I was really pissed off. But, with time everything heals and this wound shall heal too. On hindsight, am glad it's over. Time to give life another chance.

Aur bhi gham hain zamaane mein... logon ka gham dekha toh mein apna gham bhool gayi

No hard feelings. Just a sense of pity at what a certain someone has lost out on.

Yeah, am positive about myself and rightly so.... I have miles to go before I sleep (Robert frost)

On this positive and refreshing note.... I end my blog for today feeling like a butterfly flying high n low, flitting from flower to flower, sucking the nectar of life.

Adios amigo!!

It's all about falling in love.......

Yup, that's what it's all about... to be constantly in a state of love. Am a hopeless romantic. Yeah yeah, it's all about me always... that's why I labelled my blog 'Confessions of an unjust lady...'

Hmmmm............ words fail me at this moment.... I guess I am hopelessly and madly in love ,,,,maybe it's the full moon playing on my emotions.......... you never know

Nearly a year has passed since I last ranted about myself....

Yup, literally a year ago, gosh where was I stuck? In the petty nitty gritties of life trying earn moolah and making a place for myself under the sky. Am still gonna do that but what the heck, till when?

Went through a lot of upheavals in my personal life, stumbled upon untold truths, lies hidden and pushed under the carpet, blah blah blah. What did I achieve so far, nothing? My trust was betrayed, my whole value system was shaken up not to mention the emotional trauma that came in the package deal.

Yeah, I guess today's blog is all about my whining and venting my feelings out. Feelings kept sealed in the dark innards of my aching heart. How could I let someone use me like this?

Anyways, we all learn from our mistakes . It was a learning experience.

So, Ciao for now. There are many more experiences to go through and many more mistakes to be made. It's a life long process and am game for it.

Ages...........

It's been ages since I last blogged. Whew, a whirlwind affair with new insights into operations in education industry kept me bogged down preventing me from blogging. Today am in a slightly chilled out state so thought of pouring out my sufferings. Hahahha, cribbing always, that's so unjust. am all fagged out in a month of in my job, yet I want to continue doing it coz that's my bread and butter and jam and marmalade and Pancakes and maple syrup. All the good things in life come with a price tag. And, one has to really slog it out to grab the goodies.

The kids love my absence from home , no matter what am always nagging them otherwise. So, good riddance to the hag who brings moolah home for them to spend lavishly on their whims and fancies.

Am reduced to being a minting machine. Hahha, might as well go stay at the Reserve Bank of India's mint. It hurts to know your value...just a couple of bucks....nothing else but an ATM machine...ATM here means Any Time Money.

Burnout................

Burnt out, absolutely, no holidays not even on weekends, high energy levels but low on maintenance. need to slow down else will burn out like a cigarette.

Am gung ho about my new job but am putting in too much too soon, don't want to fizzle out soon.

Love my job , my team , my boss but am neglecting my home front , have no time for anyone.

God help me prioritise and manage time.

Touch wood, cross my fingers.

Finally, a day to supposedly rest...

Finally, a day for rest but a whole lot to do at the home front. Bank, kid's school, meeting relatives....hectic day ahead. No am not cribbing but am already overwhelmed looking at the schedule. When will I get me for myself?

Missing the 'Me' time. But too busy to actually note it. Hahaahha. Life goes on , at it's own pace and then one suddenly finds oneself confronted with conflicts of interests and boing you are on defensive turf. Hhehehehe. But, life goes on. One fine day , life takes a sudden turn and it's all changed and charged up to take on challenges; but life goes on. Life goes on even when there is nothing really happening in your life and you find yourself bored to death ; a change brings a fresh insight and life goes on.

Life will go on and on....but, it's how you take it...lightly or seriously that matters. For me, I want to make the most of every moment that life has to offer with my kids, my friends, my family...these days never return, the memories remain to be cherished.

It's been ages......

Yup, it's been ages since I last blogged and raved and ranted . I am working now and so just a wee bit busy. But somehow, despite being tired am unable to sleep so decided to blog , maybe that would make drowsy. Heehehehee.

Yes, it's been hectic, running and catching buses , trains and taxis to reach your workplace and after a back breaking day reach home all tired . But, you know what removes the tiresomeness in all this rigmarole? A sweet smile of your child. Yeah, My kids know how to make me forget all the tensions of a hard day at work. They are sweet angels, little big devils without horns, but nonetheless cute and my very own.

Am in a contemplative mood wondering , would life be the same without them? Would life have a meaning without them? NO, I love my kids and no matter what , am always gonna be there for them and always wish them to be with me heart and soul.

Somehow, life seems to have no meaning without these two coming up with their naughty pranks and demands. Especially, the sweet way to blackmail me into giving in to their demands.

I love my kids. Every mother does. But, every mother doesn't have kids like mine, they have their own kids. This goes out for every mother, a deep sense of gratitude for bringing life on Earth and nurturing that life to become great souls and leaders of tomorrow.

Day 11. Holi Hai...

The festival of colours is here today and I am sitting at home and tweeting, Facebooking and gchatting. No, am not a colours person. Used to be, now no more.

Holi , I remember as a kid used to be fun, with these huge tanks of coloured water and us kids dunking ourselves in them in Andamans.

Later, in Mumbai as a young child and then teenager throwing water from our balcony on people below and going to the club and the Naval Mess for lunch. It was fun.

As a wife and mother, it was full of tension with a drunk husband and my son wandering off. I had a harrowing time locating my son whom I found behind the bar in Kochi next to the waterway enjoying coca cola.

And, now as a single mom, no holi for me, yes the kids do go out and enjoy and then the scrubbing and cleaning of the kids and the home.

At different stages of life, holi has meant different things to me, yet the fervor of color hasn't changed. I still dream of once again playing holi with gay abandon and dunking myself in tanks of coloured water. Hope am able to do it again in this lifetime.

Happy Holi.