Yet again.... I drink the nectar alone...

I drink to forget...
I drink to sleep my blues away...
Yet again,...
I drink the nectar again..
The bitter sweet nectar....
The drink of Gods....
The forbidden drink...
Yet again, I take to it....
To while my time away.

The nectar makes me forget...
The wily ways of the world....
The torment...
The trauma...
The jilt....
The guilt.,...All the sins....
Of others and me ....
Everything wrong I did...
All the wrong done to me.

Yet again,.. I drink the nectar...
The bitter sweet nectar....
To while my melancholy times away.

Karma is a Bitch...

Sure it is... Karma for sure is a bitch...
It makes you rave and rant...
And want more and more....
There's nothing in it but aches and pains....
And echoes of your moans.

Life couldn't be better...
If Karma wasn't there....
Hell couldn't be merrier...
With Karma ensconed there.

Karma, Karma...
Why do you torment me?
Oh Karma! Why, Oh! Why?
I was fine...
Living in my own World...
I was fine all by myself....
Why did you have to repeat the story?
Why, Oh! Why?
Once again, am cheated...
Once again, am bruised...
Why Me?
They say History repeats itself...
Yes, It does...
Have made the same mistake twice over...
Not learnt my lessons well.

Karma sure is a Bitch...

It happened...

It happened ...
It just happened one fine day....
One fine day....
I just got up and moved out....
A strong gusty wind....
Giving me wings....
Giving me the courage....
To just let go and move on.

Move on I did...
One fine day...
I did move on.

None to worry about...
None to look upto...
None to please....
A free bird...
Flying with the flow of the wind....
Gliding through the sky...
Clouds beneath me...
The World below me...
I could see them all....
Ghosts from the past...
Looking at me....
Crinkling their eyes...
Looking at me ...
The Sun behind me....
Majestic did I I look...
A large shadow ...
Hovering in the sky.

It all happened one fine day...
One fine day it all happened.

I walk out....

I walk out...
Tall and elegant....
Faking a smile....
Feigning happiness...
I walk out... indeed....
Dignity personified...
Vanity intact...
I walk out....
A trail of blood behind...
Gory death of a heart...
Stoning of emotions...
Masking of feelings...
I walk out...
Never to return.

The Awakening... Lying awake on the soft mattress

Lying awake on the soft mattress....
I dwell upon what I have been through...
All I come up with is a great experience....
Experience that life's ups and downs ....
Has taught me.

Experiences good and bad.....
Experiences I grew into....
Experiences that gave me a jolt...
Experiences that woke me up.

Lying awake on the soft mattress...
I remember and reread the script of my life...
Relive the experiences....
The reels just whirring ....
Images flitting past.....
I remember long forgotten....
Friends and foes.....
Long done deeds ....
Days, months  and years....
Just roll past....
And a tear trickles down my cheek.

Lying awake on the soft mattress...
All alone...
Yes, the fledglings have grown into birds....
And taken flight....
The Mother bird lies awake...
All alone in a nest not her own....
The Awakening taking place.

It's that time in life...
When you just let go....
When you pack your bags and move on...
The lake here has dried up...
Migrate to the other end.

The Awakening ....
That one comes alone...
And, one goes alone...
Even in a crowd...
One is always alone.

People join in and leave midway....
They come with their experiences...
Share a few moments with you....
And, move on...Just the way you do.

It's that time of the year...
When I shed the old and don the new.
The Awakening has begun...
The wings are getting stronger...
All set to fly again...
Soar high in the sky....
In search of a new abode.

The vastness of my passion....

The vast expanse of humanity....
Beckons me....
Come Hither and take charge....
Take charge of our little ones...
I leave all....
And astride my mare of ideas....
Gallop forth and take charge.

The vastness of my passion...
The emptiness of my soul...
Filled with the laughter ...
Of the little ones....
Etched with memoirs of unabashed smiles...
Scratched deep with crinkly eyes...
Reach out to the little hands...
Right across the room.

Sweet little beings...
Someone else's babies...
All mine to nurture and care for...
All mine to polish and bring up...
With values and education that's right.

All mine, alright!
The vastness of my passion runs deep...
The depth encompasses all...
Come hitherto little ones...
Let's dance and groove together.

Restless Soul....

Am up and about...
Pottering around the home....
Surfing the net....
Thinking a billion thoughts ...
At the same time...
The restless soul that I am...
Restless sure I am.

At this hour...
When all and sundry is asleep...
I pour my hearts content out...
Seeped in pain....
Elaborate and a bit bore ....
Yet, full of hope...
The restless soul that I am.

Turmoil within...
A thousand and one apprehensions...
A million questions....
Countless desires....
The restless soul that I am.

They tell me I am crazy...
They call me names....
I don't care.....
I live on my terms...
My life is my own....
Which direction I take....
Is my decision all my own.

I am not naive...
Nor am I cunning....
I give relentlessly...
I desire none anymore....
There's so much to explore...
So much insight to gain....
The restless soul within...
Crying to gain recognition.

A nod of the head...
A blink of the eye....
A silent look....
In the vacant eyes...
A sly smile....
Wrinkled eyes...'
Crinkled eyes...
A twitching nose....
The restless soul within.

The restless soul...
Soul at rest when will it be....
Maybe the grave there is for me...
Let me make it my size.

The end of an affair...

It is the end of an affair....
The beginning of a new dawn....
Life moves on.... day goes on....
Not a trace of the pain to show....
Not a wince of ache.....
All is hunky dory outside....
A bleeding heart within.

The end of an affair......
The onset of inhibitions...
Suspicious eyes....
Lest the heart ache happens again....
No more smiles to give...
No more gay laughter...
Days of abandoned fear have begun...
Complications anew.

Trust turned into mistrust....
Screwed up life to begin....
A life never lived without pain...
Guess that's what is my fate.

Every time I promise myself....
Not again... not again....
Every time I make the same mistake....
All over again.

This life is not for me to live...
Over and over again....
I have to take take things serious...
Else will be lost again.
This time it's over for the nth time...
This time it's for good...
No more pain...
No more waiting...
The angel of death is waiting.
Hovering above my head...
Waiting....
Taking digs at me ...'Waiting...
What is it waiting for....
End my miseries soon...
Can't take the ache no more....
It's gone too far.

The end of an affair....
The affair of life....
Time to preen my wings....
And soar again above.
Playing the game....
Of hide and seek no more...
I soar up high in the sky...
Clashing swords with deathly whore....
Who can't wait no more.
I soar higher....
It beckons me....
I look down with desire....
There's none there for me.
I leap forth ....
A cry of war clenched teeth within...
Sigh! I wake up and ....
There is reeking stench within...
A stench so strong...
So empowering...
The stench of death....
The death of an affair...
The end of an affair.