Zihaal -e- miskin....

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Love in Mumbai.....

Love in Mumbai is hard to come by...
When it does come....
It's fast and furious....
Just like the life here....
The traffic slow and sluggish....
The love fast and momentary.
A flash of lightening....
A torrential rain....
 A big fat salary....
Gone in sixty seconds.
Love in Mumbai is hard to come by....
Just like the water here....
In short supply....
Yet a burst pipeline here and there.
Love in Mumbai is hard to come by...
Just like my feelings....
Hard to understand....
Difficult to get through.
Just like my thoughts....
Impenetrable....
A tableau on display....
A mask put on....
But, an open book....
For the one who really cares.
Shake her from her reverie....
Wake her up....
Say the birds....
Oops! The crows....
The city that never sleeps...
Beckon the streets and expressway....
Wake up Girl!
 Time to move that heavy bottom...
Move that arse....
Says the alarm clock....
Move it says the resolve....
Love in Mumbai takes a backseat...
In the AC bus......
Hanging at times from the pole...
Wondering if a change in profession is due....
Become a pole dancer or trapeze artist...
Life in Mumbai...
Makes you think so.
Love in Mumbai is hard to come by....
Am so in love with the tough nut to crack...
Nuts he is .... Nuttier am I.
My jaan, my love...
Is an enigma...
My power source and my stigma.
Yet, I love him true....
He makes me smile even in troubled times....
He is my love and I love him true.

I need you most today....

I need you most today....
When I am hurting...
When I am crying silently....
All alone, lest someone sees the tears....
I need you most today...
To wipe those tears.....
To make me smile again....
Yes, the wolves out there ....
Have marauded me....
Scarred me for life...
In this hurt, pain and grief....
In this moment of solitude...
I need you....
I need you beside me.
When you turned your face away...
I went into a rage...
I wreaked havoc on my self....
With a vengeance to spite you....
Yes, I did so to spite you....
I demonized my self.....
Immolated myself in this raging fire....
This angst scarred me....
Here I am nursing my wounds.....
Yet, so incomplete....
So broken....
wings clipped....
Soul shorn of all vitality...
All  gone, nothing left....
Alone, lonely and in despair.........
All doors closed and ....
Not a soul to call my own....
Not even the ones that I delivered.
You are too far away....
Too distant....
Just too far away...
So aloof.....
No feelings.....
What's the use of feelings in words....
When in reality you have sworn yourself away from me.
I need you most today...
But, you are not there as always.....
Distant, cold and aloof.....
You watch me burn...
What sadistic pleasure does this give you?
And, yet you remain sleepless worrying about me....
Why?

Winds of Change.....

Winds of change are blowing again...
The chimes in my home tell me so....
The sweet melody....
Warning me of times to come....
Warning? Yes! Times of change....
Times of upheaval...
Time to move on ...
Once again.

Winds of change are blowing again....
The traveler within is restless..
Raring to go places.....
In the need to explore.....
The ringing of bells.....
A sign to foretell....
Time to move on...
Once again.

Winds of change are blowing again....
The feet are itching ...
To take a bold step....
A step ahead or back in time...
No one knows....
What's in store....
All I know...
I am ready to go.
Time to move on....
Let go....
Once again.

Winds are a changing...
A new course to take...
A new route to follow...
A new path to pave.
Dreams galore in the eyes....
A struggle to juggle the thoughts....
To take the path unknown...
Or remain where I am.
What would make me happy?
What would quench my thirst?
The path untrodden...
The green grass fresh....
A mark to make...
An indelible ink....
Seal my fate.....
Or sink with the ship.

The Captain knows not what to do....
A dilemma that can cost lives....
Check my sails and set sail....
Yup! That's what The Captain ought to do.
For, I may not know what lies beyond..
Till I leave the shore...
The sanctity of my island...
The safe haven of my dreams...
It's broken.....
Encroached upon...
The pirates have looted my treasure....
Time to move on....
Time to set sail again.

I adjust my sails...
Take the direction of the wind...
Winds of change....
Handle my destiny.....
Handle the course I take.
I haul my anchor up again....
Take the oars in hand...
Time to start rowing....
Into the deep blue ocean...
The depths unknown.

Winds of change....
Show me the direction...
Show me the way.....
Let me sail away once again...
It's time to move on...
Let go.....
Once again.

Shifting sand....

My life is like the shifting sand....
Never still....
Always on the move.

Shifting sand...
Grain by grain...
Each grain tells a different story...
A different tale it tells.

Shifting sand....
No dune's permanent....
Always moving....
Flying with the gusty wind.
A sandstorm builds up....
When I am angry and sad...
A sandstorm that destroys....
All that comes in its path.

It clogs the nostrils ...
And every pore....
You suffocate.....
You cry in vain....
The grain of sand...
Makes you cry ....
When in your eye....
It drops down with your tears...
Drops down and moves on.

Shifting sand is my name....
Shifting sand is my life....
All I do now is....
Sift through the grains....
One by one....
Putting it up for all to see.

Shifting sand...
Sifting through each grain....
That's my life....
That's my time.....
That's my story to tell.

Bored....Evil eye...

Am bored....
Am free....
I have nothing to do...
Siesta hour...
Not for me...
Who cast an evil eye...
On my happiness....
Am alone and bored....
Must be you.
You and your unseen jealousy....
You and your fantasy...
Am outta your life for good...
Don't you get it....
Move on....
Get a leash for your emotions.

When I was there...
You ignored me...
Now am not ....
You follow me....
Why? Oh! Why?....
Do you torment me...
Why do you cast your evil eye...
On my rollicking life...
Castaway and outlawed...
You pursue me relentless.

You had your chance...
Not once, twice...but many times over....
Each time you betrayed my trust....
So, please go away...
Leave me alone....
Let me be.

Am bored....
Cast your evil eye elsewhere.

Hallucination.....

He says I am fibbing....
He says I am hallucinating...
He says I am dreaming....
He doesn't believe me....
He doesn't believe my truth....
And the truth is ...
He doesn't belong to me anymore...
He never did....
He came back....
He sought me out....
But not for love....
Maybe a feeling of guilt...
That's not love....
Had it been...
He wouldn't have faulted again...
And, again.

It's his hallucination....
It's his disbelief....
He doesn't want to come...
To terms with reality....
And, the reality is harsh...
Reality is cruel...
Reality will hurt....
I don't wait upon him anymore.

I am committed elsewhere....
When I needed him...
He had shut me out....
I turned to the first ray of light...
It was not a mirage....
It was reality.
I was walking alone...
Alone in the rain....
My tears rolling down my cheeks...
No one saw them...
He did....
He didn't say anything...
But, he was there.
His strong shoulders supported my frail frame....
He was there....
When you were absconding.

Hallucination, this is not mine....
It is reality and I am living it.
Yes, you are hallucinating...
Waiting for me...
I have moved on....
Long ago, I moved on....
You stood there watching....
Someone else and her stocking.

Time stood still....

When I met you for the first time....
Time stood still...
There was an awkward silence....
An impermeable silence....
I didn't know how to react....
I was quiet...
You must have noticed....
My words were monosyllables....
In the crowd of the room....
The meeting just going on.....
I wasn't there.

Frankly, I thought ......
You had an attitude....
That you were someone else's beau....
But, the next meeting cleared the air....
Yet, I didn't declare....
I wasn't sure of you....
Or your feelings....
Just a nagging insight....
He is ensnared.

I could feel your eyes on me....
The others noticed too...
The subtle hints you gave...
The uncomfortable look I had....
It spoke all....
All about the chemistry between us...
It was bound to happen....
All boiled over....
The next few days...
And, we were a couple inseparable.

The envy of every eye....
The office gossip everyday.....
You and I, brave it all.....
Especially me, day in and day out.....
You are at your place....
Away from the grapevine....
I suffer the envious gaze ....
Of women you scorn each day.

Today, we are one....
In mind, body and soul....
There is no looking back...
I stand by you, a complete whole.
Our dreams are one....
The passion just the same....
One goal, one sight...
To make it work....
For both of us.

Time and again....
I have been tested...
I have stood the test of time...
This time too...'
I stand before time...
Head bowed but not defeated....
In all humbleness....
I swear....
I want to make it work....
Every relation I have had....
I gave my all.....
Yet they fizzled out...
Over a period of time....
They failed the test of time...
Coz' you need two to tango....
You don't snap with one finger....
You don't clap with one hand...
You need two to tango...
Two to make it work.

This  time round too...
I am committed....
I am around...
You need to fall in place...
And, claim what you feel you found.

Time stood still...
When my eyes fell upon you....
Time is still.....
Like the still waters that run deep.