I need you most today....

I need you most today....
When I am hurting...
When I am crying silently....
All alone, lest someone sees the tears....
I need you most today...
To wipe those tears.....
To make me smile again....
Yes, the wolves out there ....
Have marauded me....
Scarred me for life...
In this hurt, pain and grief....
In this moment of solitude...
I need you....
I need you beside me.
When you turned your face away...
I went into a rage...
I wreaked havoc on my self....
With a vengeance to spite you....
Yes, I did so to spite you....
I demonized my self.....
Immolated myself in this raging fire....
This angst scarred me....
Here I am nursing my wounds.....
Yet, so incomplete....
So broken....
wings clipped....
Soul shorn of all vitality...
All  gone, nothing left....
Alone, lonely and in despair.........
All doors closed and ....
Not a soul to call my own....
Not even the ones that I delivered.
You are too far away....
Too distant....
Just too far away...
So aloof.....
No feelings.....
What's the use of feelings in words....
When in reality you have sworn yourself away from me.
I need you most today...
But, you are not there as always.....
Distant, cold and aloof.....
You watch me burn...
What sadistic pleasure does this give you?
And, yet you remain sleepless worrying about me....
Why?