There's so much to write about ...

There are bees and birds to write about ....
There are creepy, crawlies to write about ....
There's so much to write about ....
There's my farm with wild boars to write about ...
There's my outhouse in my farm to write about ...
There's my Dollhouse to write about ....
There's my tea set to write about ....
There's so much to write about ...
There are those skeletons in my cupboard to write about ....
I don't open it ....
Lest they all fall out and yikes make a mess on my bedroom floor ...
There's my beautiful jewellery to write about ....
There was a shine in his eyes when he saw my diamonds ....
I know he flicked a couple of my blings ...
I overlooked it ...
Knowing fully well....
What his financial condition is like ...
Not knowing he was taking it for the Bar Girl and her litter.
There's so much to write about...
Lots ....
The moolah in cash he took to sustain the Hoe ....
The gifts he made me buy for his mom ....
It all sucks to remember that ...
There's so much to write about.
But, it makes no sense at all ....
We all see beggars on the roads ...
At the traffic signals....
They remind me of him ....
Just a fleeting glimpse ....
That's all.

There's so much to write about ....
Yet, so little to remember now.

As you sow, so shall you reap ....

Jaisi karni, waisi bharni ...
As you sow, so shall you reap ...
Lie begets lies ....
Bigots beget bigots ....
Yeah! The lingo is too high fund ...
Stuff you won't understand...
Given your background and circumstances ...
Uneducated, uncouth and unkempt ...
That's what you guys are all about ...
What would you know of ...
Elite class?
You are but a bunch of wannabes..
Just wannabes ....
And, nothing else.
So, you get what you worked so hard for ...
Two little Dickeybirds ...
Oops... Jailbirds...
Right ...
The right stamp on your forehead.
Why do you finger me?
You know that I get angry when someone fingers me ...
Then why call upon my anger?
It will destroy whatever else is left....
Then what will you do?
So, steer clear....
Out of my path ....
The Queen doesn't like interference.

ELSE .....
As you sow, so shall you reap....
Then don't blame me for the consequences ...
The turn of events taking place.
Don't cross my path ever again ....
I drive in high speed ...
Speed kills.

Am Happy ....

The exercise that I did ...
It's shown result ...
The daughter has got her father ...
The wife her infidel husband ....
I never had intentions of using my leftover again .....
It was for you that I did what I did ...
Otherwise, he would never have come back to you ....
He came asking for your help ...
You were there for him ...
What else is needed?
Nothing.
Enjoy your life now.
I have mine to live.
I never look back ..
What's gone is gone ...
It wasn't meant to be anyways ...
He isn't my type ...
I am from a different set up ...
Elite ...
He is from the gutters .....
And, that's where he belongs ....
He could never have gelled with my lot ...
He is crass ...
WE are a class apart.
So, Enjoy the bliss ...
And, stop feeling insecure ...
There is more to life ....
You have a child to support ...
You really don't know who  I AM .....
I give a damn ....
To you.
Have you ever realized why I never changed my name?
My marital name...
Coz' no one .... can take the place of the one whom I belonged to.
The name is a legend to reckon with ...
It has a glorious past ....
It belongs to the builders of this nation ...
Past, present and future ....
I belong to such a family ....
Not some godforsaken roadside clan.
Your episode got me together again.....
With my family ....
This time as a DAUGHTER ....
The daughter shall do her father proud ...
Not run after some stale piece of meat.

Am happy ...
It is all over ...
The rest will happen by and by ...
My role in this drama is over ...
A new role awaits me.

The Storm ...

I remember ....
The walks in the rain ....
As a child ....
With gay abandon ...
And, now as an adult ....
Crying my heart out ....
Lest someone sees my tears.

Life isn't really about waiting for it all to happen ...
Or the storm to pass ...
It's all about ...
Braving the adversity ...
Braving the wind and the rain ...
Walking tall against every problem that rises ...
Head held high ...
Self esteem in place ...
Who doesn't have problems ..
It's how we overcome them that matters.

I am done with my last problem...
Am all geared for a new turn in life ..
Let's see what this new twist brings with it ...
Some more emotions .. to express...
Some more to write about.

The Storm came ...
And, is passing by ....
Am out of it ....
Though in the midst of it....
It doesn't affect me anymore ...
I have found a safe haven ...
Found my family back again ...
This time as a daughter ...
Her father is there to guide her ...
He watches over her ....
I have been reunited by the last havoc of the storm ...
With my family ...
That is what is the silver lining in the dark grey clouds.

The storm took the toxins away ...
It brought forth the Garden of Eden ....
Must be her work from up above ...
Yes, she the naughty one ....
She was always up to pranks ...
But, this time a positive one ....
For some time I was hassled ...
Not anymore ...
Nothing affects me anymore ....
Am happy ...
Just plain joyously happy.

Am dancing in the rain ....
It has washed away the pain of yesteryear's ...
A new spring has begun ...
New leaves ...
A beautiful garden of flowers.... Indeed.

Baharon Phool Barsao - She just loved to sing this .....

Gham Diye Mustaqil (K.L.Saigal) (Shahjahaan 1946) ..... Her Favourite song ....

She expressed through her songs ....

Be it sad ....
Or a comic situation ...
She conveyed via her songs ....
A beautiful woman ....
She taught me ....
A Tomboy ....
To be a woman ....
All I know as a woman today ...
Was her grooming ....
The best cook ...
A great mother ...
A dedicated and loving wife ....
She passed all her secrets to me ....
My anger ....
Destroyed it all .....
Too late to realize ....
But not to late ....
To say ....
She didn't give up ....
Hope her soul rests in peace ...
Her gardens flowers are beautiful ....
They look like her and .....
Behave like her ...
Especially Anusuya ...
Her Photocopy ....
Same nature ...
A stand up comedienne ....
And a creative genius ...
Angad a splitting image of her Son ...
Same behaviour ...
You can't take the genes out of them ....
They are a constant reminder of days of yore ....
Beautiful days ...
Good days ....
Days spent together....
One man's mistake ...
I couldn't forgive ....
I never forgot ....
I punished myself for it ....
I punish myself each day for that ...
Two flowers plucked from the garden of Eden ...
Yet I brought them up as you would .....
Hope you would be happy ....
Seeing the result ....
The most beautiful prodigies ...
The prodigal son and daughter.

She expressed through her songs ...
They know them all ...
I remember her through her favourites ...
Her dream of a preschool ...
I am living it ....
Just the way she would have wanted it.

She looks from above ....
I know she is happy now.

Geeta Dutt - Waqt Ne Kiya Kya Haseen Situm - Kaagaz Ke Phool [1959]