Poles Apart ...

World's apart our lives were ...
We are poles apart in our temperaments too...
I would rather the Twain shall never meet ...
For there shall be an explosion ...
An explosion of not only passion ...
But, also clash of Ideas and Ideals ...
You belong to the common World ...
I reside elsewhere.

Opposites attract but not my cup of tea anymore ...
I would rather have similar minded persona...
Than a mind at loggerheads.

Incongruity is the bane ...
Of relations based on passion alone ...
Nothing comes of it ...
After a certain time ...
When all else fails ...
Two strangers left ...
To deal with each others Demons.

Poles apart we are ...
Poles apart we shall be ...
And, the Twain shall never meet ...
Like the Earth and the Sky ...
Just a horizon ...
Seems as one ...
But, shall never be one.

Social, emotional difference ...
Mental, physical incompatibility ...
How could we ever believe ...
We could be one?
Never ...
We are Poles Apart.

Courage is all it takes ...

It takes a lot of courage to be the One.

The ultimate one to take on all the bashings that the Big Bad World has in store for Mankind.

It has become a habit. A bad habit to really go all out to kick the smartarses out there waiting in a virtual World.

It takes a whole lot of courage to be a single parent and yet be a good example to the whole damn World of purity and jackass smartness.

Leave aside the society; it never was and shall never be a part of my life. I live life on my terms and my terms alone. No one has the reins of my life in their hands. I have worked hard and sacrificed a lot to be where I am today.

It takes a lot to sacrifice your youth to maintain the sacrileges of a bygone era and inculcate the values and principles your foundation stands on to bring up children abandoned by their sire and yet give them the best. To be at the receiving end of a societal abuse for being a single parent and that too a strong single woman.

This society doesn't want a strong woman around who knows her mind and needs. One who doesn't fall back upon shoulders to cry on but carves her own path.

There is a lot at stake. A lot that has gone in to be who I am ... I won't let anyone take credit for the same.
There's a lot that has gone into the making of a personality that all are in awe of ; no Sir... No ways is anyone gonna take the credit for shaping my destiny ... My destiny is yet to come ... It's a journey of a lifetime ... and, the lifetime hasn't ended yet.

Courage is all it takes to be Radhika Nanda ..

A common Con Man or just plain Misunderstanding ?

An Emotional and  Mental dilemma...

What to believe and what not to believe?

Time has stood still. A chirpy person reduced to ashen faced persona. Emotion deprived life, no way to comprehend ; a confused state of mind wondering What really happened? Where did it all go wrong? Where did I falter?

For what unknown fault was a person conned and duped? Why the secrecy? Why the blackout?

On whose instructions were the actions that preceded the final duping take place?

There has to be an explanation for the turn of events that took place?

An answer to all the questions that arise when someone who becomes an integral part of your suddenly disappears without giving an explanation for duping and conning a person into believing in a utopia that doesn't exist.

Who is this person Really?  He said his name was Ashish Chaudhary from Bhiwani, a Khap member settled in Jaipur belonging to a fauji family with respectable lawyers of Jaipur from Vaishalinagar. He himself a mechanical engineer, working for Volvo as a Senior sales engineer based in Pune staying at Baner. But, yet no clue of his whereabouts. No one knows him. Strange, that despite all this information no one knows him. One draws a blank when one investigates. his mobile number non existent. So much secrecy ... Why? 

Why make someone fall for you and then disappear?

If he is not a Con man then he ought to come out of hiding and face the blunt and frank truth. Face reality and explain his behaviour.

There is no other way to find him but go public and someone might recognize him.

Who is the wife he has referred to earlier? Why did he lie to me that he wasn't attached?

Why? Is a query I need answered by HIM and HIM alone.

Confessions of an Unjust Lady : Altruistic Renditions: Dauji ... Chhotey Dauji ...

Confessions of an Unjust Lady : Altruistic Renditions: Dauji ... Chhotey Dauji ...: Chaudhary Sahib where are you looking? I am addressing this blogpost to you Dear. Look here Mister ... The one whom you conned is seeking...

Hidden Eyes ...

Mesmerizing eyes ...
Beautiful eyes ...
Long pensive gaze ...
That's the way the World saw us ...
That's the way you watch over me ...
Hidden Eyes ...
Long gone memories ..
Of a past ...
That was sweet ...
A memory not bitter ...
A memory still burning bright ...
A flaming inferno within ...
Hidden Eyes see this vision ...
Hidden Eyes worry a lot...
What became a memory ...
Was a beautiful thought ...
Moments spent together ...
Melting moments ...
Culmination of two souls ...
A Chocolat' moment ...
The Kundalini pose.

Prose written by Hidden Eyes ...
Poetry abounds galore ...
Those few moments ...
A reminder of gaiety abounds.
Hidden Eyes have seen them all ...
Burning in desire with me ...
Hidden within his Heart ...
The memories of yesterday.

Hidden Eyes ...
No more hidden from my soul.

Footprints on my Soul ...

On a melancholy note today ...
I reminisce about yesterday ...
Some souls that touched my soul ...
Some that brushed past ...
Some that hurt ...
Can hurt me no more ...
Yet footprints on my soul ..
Nevertheless.

In a World..
Already bitter with their own truths ...
Souls lay bared ...
Ensnared in their own nets ...
I walk about ...
Watching them struggle ...
No remorse ...
Yet, a sadness envelops ...
Seeing people suffer ..
Not knowing it is but a mirage.

Imprints on a tender heart ..
Scars that remain ..
Healing taken place yet ...
A twitch to feel the ache ...
Footprints ...
On the sands of time ...
Footprints on my soul.

The Child Woman ...

She grew up ...
She grew Tall ...
She grew large ...
She was huge ...
Yet, she remained a child at heart ...
All forgiving ...
All forgetting ...
Egocentric...
Yet, waif like .....
Shy, introvert , a recluse ...
Afraid of the World beyond her own realm ....
Her boundaries...
Set by herself ...
To avoid pain ...
Heartbreak and treachery.
Her bane ... her beauty ...
Her curse ... her anger ...
Suppressed ...
But, when erupted ...
Tore her World apart.

The child woman ...
In the throes of her pain ...
Self esteem lost ...
Bearing lost ... wandered ...
A wanderlust took over ...
Her journey began ...
But, she never lost her innocence ..
Never lost her faith ...
Coz' she was brought up to believe ...
Believe in the good in others ...
Each time she believed ...
She was duped ...
She was ravaged ..
Left high and dry ...
Squeezed and bereft of everything ...
Numbed emotions a return gift ...
A rape of sense and sensibilities.

She bounced back each time ...
She built her life from scratch ...
She reached the pinnacle ..
And, then she took the plunge ...
Left her success behind ...
Started afresh ...
A new challenge ...
Her motto ...
What others can't do...
I shall make a Success story out of it ...
A child like focus ...
Intent on finishing her task ...
Yet, soft at heart ...
Hard in bearing ...
But, a soft kernel within ...
The Child Woman ...
All set to take on the World Once again.

I Know ...

I know ... you are reading me ...
Don't utter a word ...
You will know me better ...
What I went through in life ...
To be so Bitter.

Yet, hope never dies ..
Am still the hopeless romantic ...
Seeking warmth in every breath ...
Trusting my failing instincts ...
yet hopeful ...
each time I fall ...
i stand up taller ...
I become stronger ...
Am like the gust of wind ...
Gaining momentum ...
With each passing moment.

I know you are reading me ..
Your heart may bleed ...
Stay strong for me ...
That's what you are meant to be ...
A strong pillar ...
A pillar I look at ...
And, gain my inspiration from.

I loved you then ...
I love you now ...The only difference ...
Life goes ON.