Bling, Bling...

Bling was all she was about ...
Bracelets and necklaces ....
Rings and ear rings...
Looked good on her ...
Bling, bling ...

Then, came a day when all that bling wasn't worth looking at ....
Nothing mattered ...
All the bling was removed ...
She shaved her head ...
And, walked away ....
In the moonlight ....
Her silhoutte...
A dark shadow ...
Moving away from humanness...
A bald figure ...
Luminous in her own light ....
The blings done away with ...
No more shining armour ...
But a glow upon the face that once smiled ...
No more smiling...
Just a harsh look ....
People say, She is very stern ...
She says, so be it ....
I don't care.

To untrained eyes....
She seems like a frigid ice maiden ..
Trained eyes... make out ...
The pain in those eyes...
The faint smile she gives ...
A shadow of a wide grin of her past.
She is a terror...
Walking, talking terror...
People run away from her presence ...
Lest she devour them with her harsh words...
She is divine ...
Yet, destructible....
She is the ultimate truth....
But, an unsaid, unwritten poem ...
About to be unfurled bud of rose...
A bleeding Red Rose.

Bling, bling ... All gone ... in the blink of an eye.

Some lessons in life ....

We must hurt in order to grow,
Fail in order to know,
Lose in order to gain ....Some lessons in life ...
Are best learnt through pain.

Life moves on ....
People left behind...
New friends made ....
Newer places visited......
New ventures to think about.

So much to outgrow ...
So much to leave behind....
But, leave behind we must ...
In order to grow....
Yes, lots to miss out on ...
But, go on we must too.

Some lessons in life are learnt the hard way ...
Nah... all the lessons in life are learnt the hard way...
It's fun ... when you think of the past ...
Wow! The mistakes we make ...
Laugh at your own foolhardiness...
No more Tomfoolery you say to yourself ...
And, still you end up making a new mistake again.

No hard feelings ...
Just a tad bit hard heart ...
For some time ....
Till you make another mistake ....
Else one wouldn't be called Human.

Some lessons in life ...
Some beautiful unforgettable moments...
Some moments you can let go of....
Not letting them entwine in the neural pathway ...
Just let the toxins out and move on.

My wild side ,,,

See me shopping ....
I go wild .....
Hoarding the best of clothes and shoes ....
That I am never gonna wear....
Am a hopeless romantic....
So everytime I fall in love ....
A new wardrobe is selected and bought....
My designers catch their head and sit tight ....
Strange outfits ....
Stranger colours....
No bling...
Plain Jane but Royal dresses....
Beige ... lightpink...cream... black.,,,purple and grey.....
Long flowing anarkalis... Churidars.... chinese collar.....
My trademark.... shawl or stole on one shoulder.... Radhika style ...designers say for the mannequins...
Good fun ... my wild side ... which tries to hide the pain within by buying stuff and keeping it in polybags.

Shoes..... my weakness ... wedges and stilettos...
Catharsis ... wedges ...heels.....
Money blown away....
Am happy.
My wild side ....

Chaos ... Utter Chaos...

Kids here and there ....
Jumping , kicking ... biting ...
Today is a chaotic day ....
Suddenly, the somewhat docile kids are all jumpy ....
Running helter skelter.....
Biting one another...
Total chaos ... utter chaos.
Gosh.... Can't see myself in this environment for long ...
I will go crazy pulling my hair out...
Trying to control my rising blood pressure.

Kids here and there ....
Whom none can seem to manage....
I seem to be just running in circles.....
Quizzing myself ...
What am I doing here.

Kids here and there....
Running amok ...
Like Rambo with a gun...
One after the other ...
Teachers getting hassled ...
Everywhere a distinctive chaos.

Chaos utter chaos ...
Everywhere.

Raaz ....

Usney chup reh kar ...saabit kar diya apne pyar ko ...
Woh kehta tha ....
Kahan hai woh jo pyar ka izhaar karte thei ...
Par usney to izhaar karke inkaar kiya ...
Aur ab chup reh kar saabit kar diyaa...
Ki usey mujh se beintehaa mohabbat hai.

Uski chuppi sab keh gayi ...
Woh sar hilaana sab keh dala usney ishaaron mein....
Ishaaron ko agar samjho toh ...
Raaz ko raaz rehne do.

Unn aankhon ki kashish aur dard ...
Dono maine dekhe ...
Tabhi aaj mein chupp hoon...
Uskey dard se mujhe taqleef hoti hai....
Isiliye mein chupp hoon...
Unn aankhon mein dard nahi dekh sakti mein ...
Dekh sakti hoon mein kuch bhi hotey huye...
Nahin mein nahin dekh sakti tujhe rotey huye.

Yeh shayad mera aakhri qalaam ho...
Shayad na ho ...
Par ab mein tujhe aur tadapta nahi dekh sakti.
Yeh raaz khud tak seemit rakhna ....
Par mere zanaazey mein zaroor aana.

Waqt kareeb hai mere intekaal ka....
Waqt bahut kam hai mere paas....
Jo baat beet gayi so gayi ....
Ab naa koi dukh hoga na koi dukhi.

Raaz ki baat hai ....
Raaz hi rehne do.

Past ...

I let go of the past ....
A long time ago ....
But, it has the knack to just ....
Spring  a surprise from here or there...
It just comes up and messes up my life...
Some way or the other.

The past isn't an issue ...
No regrets ...
Because of what happened in the past ...
Today I am what I am ...
An evolved human being ..
Different from the rest as always ....
The World literally at my feet ...
I am happy but ...
No one to share my success with.

Well,  can't crib...
You don't get everything in life, do you?
Anyways, there's no time for anyone too ....
My work keeps me on my toes from sunrise ...
To way beyond sunset ...
That leaves no time for anyone ...
Not even my flock....
24 x 7 .... I keep myself occupied.....
My flock is happy so am I.

Just some mood swings at times ...
That cost me dearly each month ...
Hahaha! Gotcha...
Yes, I buy a new mobile each month ...
The latest in the market.....
The flock likes the best ...
And, so when angry ..... I break the old one ...
To appease the flock....
Buy the best.
But, money can't buy you happiness....
Yes, we are all online always...
On the move or at home ...
We are connected .... always...
A very automated family ....
The past is just a scar nothing else.

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

Rolling In The Deep