Am Happy ....

The exercise that I did ...
It's shown result ...
The daughter has got her father ...
The wife her infidel husband ....
I never had intentions of using my leftover again .....
It was for you that I did what I did ...
Otherwise, he would never have come back to you ....
He came asking for your help ...
You were there for him ...
What else is needed?
Nothing.
Enjoy your life now.
I have mine to live.
I never look back ..
What's gone is gone ...
It wasn't meant to be anyways ...
He isn't my type ...
I am from a different set up ...
Elite ...
He is from the gutters .....
And, that's where he belongs ....
He could never have gelled with my lot ...
He is crass ...
WE are a class apart.
So, Enjoy the bliss ...
And, stop feeling insecure ...
There is more to life ....
You have a child to support ...
You really don't know who  I AM .....
I give a damn ....
To you.
Have you ever realized why I never changed my name?
My marital name...
Coz' no one .... can take the place of the one whom I belonged to.
The name is a legend to reckon with ...
It has a glorious past ....
It belongs to the builders of this nation ...
Past, present and future ....
I belong to such a family ....
Not some godforsaken roadside clan.
Your episode got me together again.....
With my family ....
This time as a DAUGHTER ....
The daughter shall do her father proud ...
Not run after some stale piece of meat.

Am happy ...
It is all over ...
The rest will happen by and by ...
My role in this drama is over ...
A new role awaits me.

The Storm ...

I remember ....
The walks in the rain ....
As a child ....
With gay abandon ...
And, now as an adult ....
Crying my heart out ....
Lest someone sees my tears.

Life isn't really about waiting for it all to happen ...
Or the storm to pass ...
It's all about ...
Braving the adversity ...
Braving the wind and the rain ...
Walking tall against every problem that rises ...
Head held high ...
Self esteem in place ...
Who doesn't have problems ..
It's how we overcome them that matters.

I am done with my last problem...
Am all geared for a new turn in life ..
Let's see what this new twist brings with it ...
Some more emotions .. to express...
Some more to write about.

The Storm came ...
And, is passing by ....
Am out of it ....
Though in the midst of it....
It doesn't affect me anymore ...
I have found a safe haven ...
Found my family back again ...
This time as a daughter ...
Her father is there to guide her ...
He watches over her ....
I have been reunited by the last havoc of the storm ...
With my family ...
That is what is the silver lining in the dark grey clouds.

The storm took the toxins away ...
It brought forth the Garden of Eden ....
Must be her work from up above ...
Yes, she the naughty one ....
She was always up to pranks ...
But, this time a positive one ....
For some time I was hassled ...
Not anymore ...
Nothing affects me anymore ....
Am happy ...
Just plain joyously happy.

Am dancing in the rain ....
It has washed away the pain of yesteryear's ...
A new spring has begun ...
New leaves ...
A beautiful garden of flowers.... Indeed.

Baharon Phool Barsao - She just loved to sing this .....

Gham Diye Mustaqil (K.L.Saigal) (Shahjahaan 1946) ..... Her Favourite song ....

She expressed through her songs ....

Be it sad ....
Or a comic situation ...
She conveyed via her songs ....
A beautiful woman ....
She taught me ....
A Tomboy ....
To be a woman ....
All I know as a woman today ...
Was her grooming ....
The best cook ...
A great mother ...
A dedicated and loving wife ....
She passed all her secrets to me ....
My anger ....
Destroyed it all .....
Too late to realize ....
But not to late ....
To say ....
She didn't give up ....
Hope her soul rests in peace ...
Her gardens flowers are beautiful ....
They look like her and .....
Behave like her ...
Especially Anusuya ...
Her Photocopy ....
Same nature ...
A stand up comedienne ....
And a creative genius ...
Angad a splitting image of her Son ...
Same behaviour ...
You can't take the genes out of them ....
They are a constant reminder of days of yore ....
Beautiful days ...
Good days ....
Days spent together....
One man's mistake ...
I couldn't forgive ....
I never forgot ....
I punished myself for it ....
I punish myself each day for that ...
Two flowers plucked from the garden of Eden ...
Yet I brought them up as you would .....
Hope you would be happy ....
Seeing the result ....
The most beautiful prodigies ...
The prodigal son and daughter.

She expressed through her songs ...
They know them all ...
I remember her through her favourites ...
Her dream of a preschool ...
I am living it ....
Just the way she would have wanted it.

She looks from above ....
I know she is happy now.

Geeta Dutt - Waqt Ne Kiya Kya Haseen Situm - Kaagaz Ke Phool [1959]

Ye Duniya Agar Mil Bhi Jaye To Kya Hai.flv

Jaane woh kaise log the jinke pyar ko pyar mila- PYASA