Dust...

No matter what I do...
No matter How I do it...
The dust remains....
The human remains....
Difficult to erase memories...
Painful existence remains.

No matter what I do...
No matter How I do it...
The scars remain....
Reminding me each day ...
Each moment revisited....
Each pain experienced again and again and again...
Each moment, each day.

Life goes on....
People come and go..
I search for that face....
I keep looking....
Here, there, everywhere....
Disappeared... Vanished into thin air....
All that remains is memories...
The scars... The others...
The others who constantly remind you...
Of his treachery ...
You can only smile with a tear in your eye.

They ask... Why tears?

You say.... DUST....

Yeh rishta kya kehlata hai....

Tootey dhaagey...
Kachche dhaagey...
Ek khichanv...
Toot gaye...
Wapas jodey toh kaise joodey...
Jood naa paye kabhi....
Do ajnabee....
Ek dujey ke liye baney thei kabhi...
Aaj raah pe mil ke bhi mil naa payenge.

Yeh rishta...
Anokha bandhan...
Anmol rishta tha kabhi....
Aaj bus a bandhan hai....
Tootey rishton ka bandhan....
Galey se nikli ek awaaz ka saaz...
Jo kisi ne chipaa diya.

Allah nek hai...
Uparwala sab jaante huye bhi...
Nazarein pher raha hai...
Jaane kis janam ka ber hai...
Jo aaj meher aur karam...
Se marhoom rakh raha hai.


Do dil...
Jo ab shayad kabhi jud na payein...
Ek apni raah chala gaya...
Duja bhikhar kar reh gaya...
WEk aabad ho gaya...
Duja banjar or baanjh ban gaya.

Waah kya rishta tha...
Waah ji kya rishta hai....
Ek aabaad...Dooja barbaad...

Silent night...

Eerily silent night...
Suddenly am awakened...
By the piercing scream of a child...
My unborn ones.....
Screaming ....
Asking for justice....
Every night....
Through the day....
I go through hell....
I seek justice for the unborn....
The unborn whom he killed....
He killed with his lies....
He killed with an evil smile....
While I lay there...
Writhing in pain....
He killed my babies...
One by one...
I lay helpless....
In a hazy world...
He lay beside me....
In his world.

Silent nights....
Beckon me to seek revenge...
Blood for blood...
Every drop must count.
A tear for a tear....
Every drop must count....
An eye for an eye....
Every painful moment to be accounted for.

Crying my heart out....

Aloud...
Loud...
Open mouthed...
I want to cry my heart out....
I can't...
I want to...
Yet I can't.
Buried deep within...
Spurned by the devil....
My heart wants to shout out...
Scream ....
I want what was mine...
My self...
My self esteem....
My self confidence...
Give my life back to me....
Give my happiness to me....
Why did you take it all away...
I was happy and content....
In My life....
Why did you come?
Why did you lie to me?
Why you did...
What you did?
Why me?
Why?

Trembling lips...

Trembling lips....
Shivering lips...
Tears behind the lashes....
All asking one question...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

A lump in my throat....
Words fail me...
All I can utter is...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

All gaze upon me...
Asking ...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

A silent cry..
A silent symphony...
Sounding...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

Nothing exists...
No room...
No audience....
Just questions...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

A sign...
Just a sign...
Trembling lips...
Asking...
WHY? WHY? WHY?

Tears...

Tears... they hang there...
Ready to be shed....
Some already shed...
Leaving a mark on my cheeks.


A silence....
An interminable silence....
Envelopes the room....
Shrouded with the mystery....
The mystery of my tears.


I shed my tears for the unfaithful....
I shed it for you....
For you are long gone and dead....
No feelings left within you.


On the eve of our first meeting...
I shed tears for that fateful day...
The day that left me fateless today.


Time has stood still for me....
The Universe has stopped...
The day you left me...
And today....
All seem the same...
A void...
An empty space...
A black hole.

You left me with painful memories...
Memories that kill me each moment...
Unanswered questions...
The answers to which I seek.

Tears well up in my eyes...
All I do is look around...
Searching for you ...
But, You are gone...
In another pair of arms...
Leaving me forlorn.

Drizzle... Dazzle... Dangle....

Dangling from the ceiling fan....
She sees it all....
The drizzle outside....
The dazzle of flashes within...
In the room .....
And deep within...
In the core of her heart.

She can't say a word...
Not now...no more...
When she tried to say....
She was silenced....
She was laughed upon...
She had no choice...
When all turned their backs on her...
The law of the land seemed impotent.....
She walked away ....
Into her room...
And, lo! Here she dangles....
Like a scarecrow....
And the law remains ....
Unabashedly shame faced.

He walks in the rain...
Holding another hand....
He has his devilish grin...
Free as a bird....
No care for all his sins.

A distant painful memory....

You have become a distant painful memory...
A memory to be erased...
A memory that brings pain ...
A memory that brings tears...
A memory that I relive each day...
A memory that I ignite every moment...
A memory that needs to be punished ....
A memory that will remain.

Time cannot heal this wound...
Time is not permanent...
This wound is...
This pus oozing scar is....
What remains.
You ruined it all...
Just for a few pennies more...
You ruined it all...
Just for a few lustful moments...
You ruined it all....
For your worldly pleasures....
Just your pleasures.

You and your talks...
High fundamental talks...
Talks that swayed me...
Talks that betrayed my emotions...
Talks that betrayed me ultimately.
Why me? Why did you do this to me?
I placed you on a pedestal....
I adored you...
I adorned your name on my self...
I worshipped the ground you tread upon...
I loved you....
You just threw it all away....
In a moment....
I was lifeless...
Dead beat lifeless...
A zombie walking the streets....
A feelingless woman asking for justice.

I asked you Why/
You laughed it off....
I wept left bereft....
You walked away holding someone else's hand.
I was left behind....
Clutching my bleeding womb....
I was left behind...
Barren and a woman forlorn.

A distant painful memory...
You ought to be...
Yet I hold on to thoughts of you...
Hoping hopelessly for your return...
A far fetched thought...
A wish for being together again.