Raaz ....

Usney chup reh kar ...saabit kar diya apne pyar ko ...
Woh kehta tha ....
Kahan hai woh jo pyar ka izhaar karte thei ...
Par usney to izhaar karke inkaar kiya ...
Aur ab chup reh kar saabit kar diyaa...
Ki usey mujh se beintehaa mohabbat hai.

Uski chuppi sab keh gayi ...
Woh sar hilaana sab keh dala usney ishaaron mein....
Ishaaron ko agar samjho toh ...
Raaz ko raaz rehne do.

Unn aankhon ki kashish aur dard ...
Dono maine dekhe ...
Tabhi aaj mein chupp hoon...
Uskey dard se mujhe taqleef hoti hai....
Isiliye mein chupp hoon...
Unn aankhon mein dard nahi dekh sakti mein ...
Dekh sakti hoon mein kuch bhi hotey huye...
Nahin mein nahin dekh sakti tujhe rotey huye.

Yeh shayad mera aakhri qalaam ho...
Shayad na ho ...
Par ab mein tujhe aur tadapta nahi dekh sakti.
Yeh raaz khud tak seemit rakhna ....
Par mere zanaazey mein zaroor aana.

Waqt kareeb hai mere intekaal ka....
Waqt bahut kam hai mere paas....
Jo baat beet gayi so gayi ....
Ab naa koi dukh hoga na koi dukhi.

Raaz ki baat hai ....
Raaz hi rehne do.

Past ...

I let go of the past ....
A long time ago ....
But, it has the knack to just ....
Spring  a surprise from here or there...
It just comes up and messes up my life...
Some way or the other.

The past isn't an issue ...
No regrets ...
Because of what happened in the past ...
Today I am what I am ...
An evolved human being ..
Different from the rest as always ....
The World literally at my feet ...
I am happy but ...
No one to share my success with.

Well,  can't crib...
You don't get everything in life, do you?
Anyways, there's no time for anyone too ....
My work keeps me on my toes from sunrise ...
To way beyond sunset ...
That leaves no time for anyone ...
Not even my flock....
24 x 7 .... I keep myself occupied.....
My flock is happy so am I.

Just some mood swings at times ...
That cost me dearly each month ...
Hahaha! Gotcha...
Yes, I buy a new mobile each month ...
The latest in the market.....
The flock likes the best ...
And, so when angry ..... I break the old one ...
To appease the flock....
Buy the best.
But, money can't buy you happiness....
Yes, we are all online always...
On the move or at home ...
We are connected .... always...
A very automated family ....
The past is just a scar nothing else.

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

Rolling In The Deep

Firework.....

So many... In such a short time ...

Yeah! So many lovers ...
Ek baar thaana ki saala ...
Sab mardon ko sanitary pad ki tarah use karo ...
Aur phir dustbin mein daal do....
Saale sab usi layak hain...
Abb ke yehi motto rahega ....
No more love shove ...
Now only lust ... satisfaction (mine) ..
And, leave them hanging .....lol

I must be dead drugged to write this ...
What a bold statement to make ..
In India .....
Our So called Society ...
All fuckall ...
Made by suckers ....
Men with no balls .....
Just anklets and wearing petticoats ...
Eunuchs ....
All of them ....

Just use them and leave them....
They deserve no emotion of yours ...
Just your motion ..
Loose motion smeared on their ugly faces...
Faecal matter to manage their fiscal matters ...lol

He was my friend first ...

Yeah! He was my friend first...
Then kab pyar ho gaya ...
Pata hi nahi chala...
I was setting him up for my cousin ....
But setting ke aankde shaayad ultey ho gaye...
And, one fine day we realized we were made for each other...
There was someone else who wanted to marry me ....
He tried his level best to wean me away from him ....
He couldn't ... I broke all ties with him ....
And, I married him .....
We were happy....
We had two kids...
The best in the World ... geniuses...
Whizkids ...
Yet, one day a storm came and the nest was left tattered and torn ...
Nothing left of it .....
After that Mamma bird never made a nest again ....
Papa bird flew away.... set up a new nest ....
Mamma bird keeps moving from one place to another with the two birdies...
But, she is happy ....
Coz' now there is no nest to break....
Nothing left to break ...
Not even her heart ....
A heart of stone ...
A heart that doesn't bleed anymore ....
All there is a ROCK ....
Nothing else...
It can't melt even ...
So, she is more like an Ice maiden ...
Whom they fear ....
Who come near ....
Her words are fireworks ...
No sweetness in them ...
Just barking orders.....
Keeping men as slaves ...
Coz' slaves are all she needs now ...
No hearts just slaves to hurt and feel nice about it...
I know sadistic ... but that's what time has made her ...
Her destiny unknown....
She treads upon treacherous terrain ...
One slip and a deep precipice ...
But, she moves on ...
Not looking back.........ever....
Those who are gone ...
Are lost forever....
No memories ....
Just deep scars .....
An anger that usurps all the goodness with in her ....
An  anger that's consumed her ....
And left her smouldering.

He was my friend first ...
Now, No one.

Humble love ...

This is another love story ....
Whose?
Mine....
I have many anecdotes ....
Lotsa stories   love stories to write about ....
This guy too still loves me and adores me ....
Literally worships me ...
Kisses the ground I walk on.
All he can do is sigh from a distance ....
And, worry about me all the time ...
They all love me ....
Fuckers , they do ....
But.... all are scared of my anger ...
The What if she...?
Kills their libido ....
 I walk away laughing.
Am happy , though they are lovers....
They love me and respect me....
Are always there for me ...
Coz' they know , I mean no harm ....
I am as harmless as an ANT in an Elephant's trunk.
LOL......
There are a couple more ...
Who love me in all humbleness..
The holy Queen ...
Yet the Queen doesn't set her eyes upon them...
She walks on ....
A journey .... to someplace ....
She herself is unaware of ...
Maybe, a journey of self discovery .....
What's left to discover though!
Something ..... some thought torments her soul....
Tugs at her toes....
Eggs her on to move ... move and move.
So humble love watches from a distance .... they all do.